I would say that each person has to decide for their self what they think is the best thing to do. It's good to ask what other people think, of course, but ultimately, it's your decision. I can't go back to my childhood home. It's gone. But I never had a desire to go back so it doesn't really matter to me. My childhood wasn't really awful. It was okay. Some things about it were difficult, but not too bad. If you had a very abusive childhood and think you may have been abused and programmed by Satanists, it's probably not a good idea to go back to where you grew up. That could be a program inside your subconscious designed to bring you back to the people there who abused you so they can trigger you to kill yourself. I know that's dark, but that's the kind of thing that Satanists program into their child victims, sadly. I worked with many of them like that. So be careful and really consider if going back is the best thing for you. Maybe it is, I'm not sure. You'd know a lot better than I would. Let us know what you decide.