Recent content by ikiwismet

I know that the main self care challenge for me is about stepping off the crazy spinning wheel of productivity and caregiving. At least for a breath or two in the midst of it all. There is another challenge here. Art has been my way of playing since l was a child. I continued making art through...

The most obvious change is that I am almost free of the "sciatic" pain that got me started on the program. I'm also experiencing a calmer state of mind with less tension and obsession.

When I make a mistake, even the slightest, I get extremely angry. My husband finds it somewhat amusing because I fly into a tourettes-like rant that includes references to God when I don't have the slightest belief in one. The anger seems directed at the inanimate objects involved but of course...

Thanks for sharing your experience with this. I also am figuring out that what is going on with our relationship is a trigger for my symptoms. Working toward being okay with how I feel, and also trying to be okay with setting some limits to care for myself.

On the question of what apprehensions I have about the program or life in general. I think the one big fear is that if I really get in touch with myself that I will break apart my relationship with my husband. There's no real reason to expect that. There are tensions in our relationship, and I...

At first nothing came to mind when I pondered if something I had done since starting the program made me proud. Then I realized that what I had undertaken was profoundly difficult work. My therapist, who is not a TMS therapist, has said that I am quite courageous in taking this on. She looked...

Yes, my pain has been moving around a bit the last couple of weeks. My mind seems to be seeking a replacement for the hip and leg pain. That pain has diminished but not left town yet. Meanwhile old friends return for brief visits, shoulder, elbow, and the head all trying out for the role of fear...

I too have few memories of my childhood, as does my sister. I have a few traumatic experiences I remember, and even some that I am not sure if it was my experience or someone else. I have found that as I have worked through some of those memories that other related memories slip out, adding some...

Thanks for the observation of the nonlinear nature of the process, I tend to want to think that this step leads to the next, but maybe every step leads us there. Day 8 took a week as those current stressors included a lot of deferring my time to other's agendas. This just points to my need to...