In 2007 I put out my back and it continued to hurt for months despite physiotherapy, pain pills etc. I then discovered Dr. Sarno, read most of his books and realized that I had TMS and probably have had it since I was a child. I gained relief from pain but continued to have tender points, headaches and sometimes acute pain when life got stressful. A few years ago I did the structured program here on the TMS wiki and it helped a lot. Now I'm in pain again. I've put my back out 3 times in as many months and now have chronic upper back and neck pain (and an awful headache as I type). I know this is TMS but a little voice in me says, Will I ever conquer this? I started to see a TMS therapist by Skype. I've had one session. The problem is that much of my current stress is finance related and I really can't afford the therapy but I'm doing it anyhow. I figure it will be less of a financial strain if I have a session every 2 weeks instead of once a week. I'm also suffering from anxiety. I know it's all stress related, I just don't know what to do when I identify the emotion I'm suppressing. If it's anger do I go in a room and scream, punch a pillow? I think this is the part that has always eluded me. I will try the structured program again as I feel I need to do something between therapy sessions. I'll continue to post in the forum.