hi i have been having health anxiety since childhood ,when i was 17 i started having panick attacks which i though was due to heart condition as i had no idea what panic attacks are i took me long time to get convinced but after therapy and medication my breathing came back to normal and i stopped medication life was good for 3 years with some random panic here and there in 2017 i remember i had some problem with my eyes (floaters and weird feeling) went to doctor thrice and it went away
in jan'18 i had a uti i was on a holiday so it wasn't treated properly came back test confirmed uti took antibiotics i was fine just seemed a bit off took more antibiotics it went away but that a bit odd feeling stayed i was uti free in Feb which freaked me out since i was still feeling off i thought there has to be something did the worst thing googled came to know about ic and thought my life was over i was getting suicidal went to more doctors had alot of cultures to rule out infection and ultrasounds and blood test all tests came back normal till then i developed weird pain in vagina that comes and goes then focus shifted to vulvodynia googled like crazy i used to google 5 hours day and those forums are a very dark place to be i used to cry everyday thinking why it's happening with me at such a young age then i got to know about tms and iam hopeful.
my current symptoms include
burning vulva pain on and off
shooting pain down urethra sometimes
pubic boon heaviness and pain
pain at start of urination
also the recent urologist i went to wanted to do cystoscopy with hydro which my mom refused as i have no bladder pain or urgency and i could make matter worse with a false diagnosis as she is aware of my health anxiety
now my mind is stuck to what if i have inflammation , what if i have some virus , what if i never get my life back
also i have started journal-ling and sep but the main issue is iam having semester off holidays and i mostly stay at home all day and i have no distractions iam constantly obsessing over pain about how much water i drank how much times i went to pee etc
anyone who recovered from these symptoms would be a huge help.
sorry for such a long post had to vent it out.
in jan'18 i had a uti i was on a holiday so it wasn't treated properly came back test confirmed uti took antibiotics i was fine just seemed a bit off took more antibiotics it went away but that a bit odd feeling stayed i was uti free in Feb which freaked me out since i was still feeling off i thought there has to be something did the worst thing googled came to know about ic and thought my life was over i was getting suicidal went to more doctors had alot of cultures to rule out infection and ultrasounds and blood test all tests came back normal till then i developed weird pain in vagina that comes and goes then focus shifted to vulvodynia googled like crazy i used to google 5 hours day and those forums are a very dark place to be i used to cry everyday thinking why it's happening with me at such a young age then i got to know about tms and iam hopeful.
my current symptoms include
burning vulva pain on and off
shooting pain down urethra sometimes
pubic boon heaviness and pain
pain at start of urination
also the recent urologist i went to wanted to do cystoscopy with hydro which my mom refused as i have no bladder pain or urgency and i could make matter worse with a false diagnosis as she is aware of my health anxiety
now my mind is stuck to what if i have inflammation , what if i have some virus , what if i never get my life back
also i have started journal-ling and sep but the main issue is iam having semester off holidays and i mostly stay at home all day and i have no distractions iam constantly obsessing over pain about how much water i drank how much times i went to pee etc
anyone who recovered from these symptoms would be a huge help.
sorry for such a long post had to vent it out.