Hi, stevow7! I want to make sure you get advice from medical professionals on this one. Quitting benzos cold turkey after months of use can lead to intense withdrawal and - depending on the dose - sometimes seizures. You’ll want practitioners with trained experience to work through this with you.
This forum is always here if you need mind-body healing advice. For this question (which is a medical question), a doctor will know best - they can help address your medication concerns and help you safely discontinue prescriptions. If you aren’t happy with your current provider’s advice or want a second opinion, it’s okay to find another medical practitioner you feel more comfortable with. I’ve also called local pharmacists many times for general questions.
It’s good to be informed on potential medication side effects. That said, please remember there is a tremendous amount of inappropriate advice on the internet from people who got lucky, don’t understand how medications work, are unaware of the possible risks of quitting cold turkey, etc. It’s also important to keep in mind that uncommon or even misleading (not always intentionally) horror stories about side effects plague the internet. If you are dealing with anxiety, it’s a game changer to work with a doctor you truly trust to help you make decisions - this helps one avoid going down the internet rabbit hole and trying to make decisions independently or by consulting with laypeople.
From an anxiety management perspective, it sounds like you still don’t feel safe. I would consider why memory loss reported in one user scares you. Steve Ozanich told me years ago that I was addicted to worrying - and that realization was so freeing. I repeat that to myself whenever I continue to feel unsafe.
This forum is a great resource for mind-body healing, but medical advice will be best provided by practitioners. I hope everything works out!