Hello TMS forums. Let me share with you my story. I'm 21 years old, from Argentina. 7 months ago, I had unprotected sex with a girl, who is my girlfriend now. Two days after this, symptoms of a firstly suspected STD started. Urinary urgency, stinging in penis, some pain when the penis was getting erected. At the very same time I was about to start my first job as a professional motion designer, but I wasn't stressed about it. Suspecting a UTI, started taking antibiotics by my own. Nothing changed. Anxiety and fear started to kick in. I have chlamydia? Gonorrhea?. Obsessive google symptom searching began. I didn't have medical insurance so at the moment and I didn't know nothing about going to doctors by my own. I'm the kind of person that doesn't ask for help or share his problems to anyone, until it blows up or I'm in severe problems. Symptoms worsened and new ones appeared, in conjunction with my increased stress,fear and anxiety of didn't know what was happening. At some point the pain in my perineum was so bad that It hurt even from walking. In completely urgency and desperation mode, I asked my dad to go to a urologist friend of him. His words were that I had no bacterial prostatitis, that everything was in my mind and things will heal on it's own. Happy to hear this words, I left with optimism that lasted for a couple of days. The cycle of obsessing and stress started again. How can symptoms this bad and real BE NOTHING?. I must have something. Doctor didn't even told me to do tests. On my own, I went to a different (and expensive) doctor who also suspected that I had prostatitis. This one checked manually my prostate and told me to do several STD tests, for every kind of bacteria and disease, which all came by with negative results. His diagnosis was no bacterial prostatitis and recommended to start PT. Now with real tests results that told me that I actually had nothing STD related, my mind relaxed, but only for a while. I started to think (after investigating on internet, of course) that I may have a hidden bacteria that was undetectable and also discovered pudendal nerve entrapment, which I didn't pay much attention because my symptoms started after sex. During all of this, I talked to my girlfriend and she told me that she was completely clean and had been tested very recently before having sex with me. Decided to start PT, whose told me that I had a very thigh pelvic floor ,and that my problem was muscular (i'm a very fit guy that is into bodybuilding). After not experiencing any kind of relief after 6 sessions, I stopped visiting her. At this point I was completely alone, no one understood what was happening to my and how much i't was ruining my life. Like, why no one couldn't find what was wrong with me?. I should be having amazing sex without pain at my age!. Here started the self treatment part for several months. Tried supplements, diet, stretching, antibiotics by my own, anti fungals, creams, massages, not going to the gym. NOTHING at all changed ANY of my symptoms. I didn't have any sense at all. I didn't know what triggered my symptoms beside anxiety and nervousness. I didn't understand at all why it was worse some days, and better in others, I was completely loosing my mind. In this stage, I ditched the "hidden bacteria" theory and i was for sure that i was muscular and pudendal nerve related, since it made sense because i go to the gym a lot, i don't stretch at all, and i had very rough sex with my girlfriend. I ended up in the pudendal nerve hope forums, reading terrible horror stories. My symptoms shifted. The pain in the perineum went to the inner groin, just to the left, right in the nerve. All the others symptoms stayed the same. My hopes were absolutely destroyed. I cried several times because this coulnd't be happening to me, and i didn't even know what was going on. After reading some success stories of people that healed after "not paying attention to it, and just ignoring" I decided to do the same, ditch every single thing that i was trying,ignore the pain ,hit the gim without any worries and and just hope for the best, but my frame was the very same as always. "to try something". I was trying to not think about it but i was thinking about it at the same time. Had some good days when i was in a good mental state, but symptoms were always there in a certain degree. Never had a symptom free day since the first day that this started. Recently I've discovered the TMS term, that it gets really close to the "don't pay attention to the pain" theory. But it's extremely hard to ACCEPT that I don't have nothing with symptoms SO REAL, and that are there EVERY SINGLE DAY, DURING ALL DAY. The only thing that healed and showed me that this may be TMS is that, when I ditched the cream i was using on my penis for the redness,tenderness and spots, these symptoms disappeared in the next days. What can I do to accept this? I have some days when my mental state is all about "i don't have nothing, you already tested for everything, you can train, you can have sex, it's not impeding nothing on your life" but this lasts shortly, and again, I start to think that it may be a hernia, and start to check myself, watch my penis, touch my nerve if it hurts, etcetera. As a person, I'm REALLY obsessive,perfectionist and paranoid when something related to my health happens. I always get side effects from medications just by reading them. I google my symptoms, and fear of the worse. When i'm injured or sick, i become really obsessive with trying to heal everything in order to continue with my life. For example,I took Accutane two years ago and side effects are living with me after all those years. During accutane I read every single side effect related horror story and became extremely paranoid with any side effect that i suffered. I'm also very anxious with anything sex related. I pressure my self to be "the best" when having sex with a girl. I get really nervous about not being able to hold an erection,not satisfying the girl and even to put a condom. All of these happened that first time when everything started. In conclusion, what should I do? I'm trying to digest the TMS approach but it's getting really hard to accept it. I can't ignore my symptoms, especially the urinary urgency because it's always there. I haven't read any TMS related book. I would appreciate some advise. Thanks a lot.