First I would like to say what a wonderful community of people that are on this forum. I have posted very little but read lots of other posts, downloads, etc. that have been so helpful to me. I have a long history dealing with TMS. I healed from TMS about 8 years ago and then had a setback several years ago and having a much harder time this go around! It's like I lost my confidence that I will get better. Like everyone else, I do have good days and bad days. However, never go a day without some pain. I can accept that, but I sabotage happy occasions in my life and this is really getting me down. This weekend my daughter had a surprise engagement which I have known about for awhile. I am thrilled with her fiancé and the whole situation. My problem is I worry so much about being in pain and have so much anxiety leading up to the event, that I am in pain, worry and ruin it for myself. I know it's about my daughter and am thrilled for her, but I sabotaged my time. This also happens going on vacation and other supposedly happy times. I try to live In the moment, think psychological, been keeping a journal. Feel stuck! Anyone else feel like this?