Not "bad", @Nightowl! It's just a behavior, one of the collection of many different behaviors which make you unique, and which you can choose to adjust or let go when you see something is not going to serve you anymore. You can do this with kindness and patience for yourself (quoting Nicole Sachs). It's a process and a journey, one with side trips and rest stops and sometimes setbacks. But it will proceed as long as you visualize and have faith in the rewards ahead.
I am trying so hard to have that faith!
I'm going to read Nichole Sachs's book next since I just finished the Claire Weekes book.