a Brief history.. About two years ago my son was born. Life was good, but very stressful. A month after his birth I "injured" my back picking up a very light kettlebell - something I do constantly with no issue usually. MRI showed horrible L4L5 and L5S1 herniation, etc- you all know the program. I had several months of PT, pain, new chairs at work, special pillows, special shoes, etc. I eventually found Sarno's books, read them, and long story short - I beat it. It went away and never returned. In fact, about two months ago I was deadlifting, and felt my lower back "go out" again - same feeling as before. Couldn't even stand up. I went home, iced it, rested a couple of days, and was back to normal in a few days once the muscle tension calmed down. With that said I seem to have picked up an accessory to my back pain that has assumed center stage. About the time my back healed for good, my arms started falling asleep at night. Different nerves - it didn't matter. Ulnar, radial... left arm... right hand. Completely random. I got really scared because they would also ache during the day,etc - and I work at a computer constantly so I went to a doc who ruled out things that keep me up at night like MS, RA, etc. This has come and gone, but what has also arisin in the past year is the feeling like my joints are all constantly popping, and pain at all their attachment points. Especially my wrists and hands and knuckles. My shoulder pops all the time too. Sometimes my ankles. Beyond the popping, there is some persistent throbbing too at some of these connection points. my wrists grind and pop and are gritty when i rotate them... same with ankles. My shoulders pop when i roll them. it gets old On the same note, I can go to the gym and lift like crazy if I want with minimal impact, so its not stopping me from doing anything. Its just burningly painful, annoying, and makes me feel sore all the time, or like my joints are going to pop out, or my knuckles need to constantly be cracked... yet when I crack them they burn. I got really obsessive about this over the year. Trying to find food reactions that might be causing this, stopped working out, doctor visits, all of this. I know TMS. Ive beaten the back pain. But I'm having such a hard time convincing myself that this is it and I can beat it. When it was my back, I had one spot to focus on and deal with. One to ignore, forget about, move on from. This pain is all overthe place and moves constantly. I am up writing at 4 AM right now because I can't sleep because i' unable to get comfortable. The same thing happened last night as well. I just toss and turn and can't find anywhere I am comfortable. I know I have to buy in 100% that this is TMS because thats how I got past my back issues - but this is so broad and moving and diffcult to trace. Anyone experience this and get pst it? I just finished reading The Great Pain Deception and think its great.. but at th end, I'm still dealing with this massive discomfort that I can't seem to get past. advice is appreciared. I know this stuff works. I'm just having trouble buying into it on this one... still feel like it's something else even though I've been tested. like I'm going to go to the doctor and they're ging to say "oh lets do this blood test... ahh. I see. you have THIS horrible disease. I'm sorry." Thanks for you help. Been dealing with this for awhile. The pas few years had me get divorced, remarried, have a kid, lose a brother, have a nepew kill himself have both parents get sick and rushed to hospitals and eventually into nursing homes, job stress, weight and eating issues... you name it. And I feel like this is really taking over on me.