Alicia Batson MD
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I am often asked what “my story” is. Everyone who has suffered from Tension Myositis Syndrome (TMS) or a Psychophysiologic Disorder (PPD) has a long, tortuous story to tell - that is, if they are lucking enough to have found a TMS-trained physician or therapist who has helped them step off the Merry-Go-Round Epidemic of Chronic Pain in the 21st Century.
So, I’m posting “My Story” today. My goal in posting such an honest account of my experience is to allow others who suffer from TMS/PPD a window into another’s experience, so that they may see themselves and find hope that they too can recover. PPD is a trickster. It can make you believe you will never get better, that every one will get better but you. Often, it helps to see that someone else had the very same symptom and recovered.
I can’t say when my story began. As I look back, there were signs in my childhood that my body was crying out. But, the big problems that I could no longer ignore started in 2003 while working in a fast-paced, high stress medical practice - too little time with patients, too much time at the computer and doing paper work, too little sleep. I developed pain in my elbows which quickly blossomed into disabling “repetitive strain injury” which resulted in my having to stop work. For the next 10 years, I stumbled from treatment to treatment trying to figure out what was wrong with my arms and meanwhile, collecting more symptoms as time went on. Well-intentioned practitioners offered me their expert treatments, doing their best to help me, to no avail. Some treatments would help for awhile, but the symptoms would always return - or would go away only to make way for another, new symptom to appear. I was only able to return to work for brief stents, ultimately being brought to my knees again by the intense computer usage - or so I believed. I spent a great deal of money trying to find the answer since most of my care occurred in the alternative medicine world. It was exhausting. It was devastating. It was terrifying. It affected every aspect of my life - my work, my family, my marriage, my social life, my health. I could list all the things the pain prevented me from doing, but just know that every aspect of my life was adversely affected. Eventually, one of my physical therapist referred me to Dr. Howard Schubiner’s website, www.unlearnyourpain.com . I am eternally grateful for this. I knew immediately that this was my problem - my mind was causing all of these physical symptoms. Even with 9 years of medical training in both psychiatry and internal medicine, this never occurred to me. What a huge relief it was for me to find someone who knew the truth, to tell me the truth ! This affirmed my experience and gave me a way forward - a way home. Considering what I had gone through the prior ten years, the treatment was a cake walk. Though it took time to undo all the fear and autonomic nervous system activation I had built up over a lifetime, recovery was steady. In a year, I began training for my first triathlon which for me, was a celebratory marker for my healing.
Below are the TMS symptoms I had and the treatments I underwent. The quotes contain diagnoses I was given.
My TMS Symptoms:
Bilateral forearm pain, tingling, numbness, subjective weakness (“repetitive strain injury”)
Trapezius/neck muscle tightness, swelling, tingling, sensitivity to touch (“long neck syndrome”)
Tinnitus
Hyperacusis (sound sensitivity)
Ear pain, popping, pressure changes
Temporomandibular Joint pain (“TMJ”)
Teeth sensitivity
Jaw clinching resulting in multiple cracked teeth
Tension headaches
Upper back muscle spasm
Lower back muscle tightness
Buttock Pain (“sacroiliac joint pain” and “pyriformis syndrome”)
Lower back and leg pain (“sciatica”)
Ankle pain (“peroneal tendonitis”)
Knee pain (“chondromalacia patella”)
Femoral Muscle strain
Ham string strain
Achilles tendonitis
Plantar Fasciitis
Rectal muscle spasm (“endometriosis”)
Constipation
Nighttime urinary frequency
Skin Rashes
Multiple food sensitivities
Eye twitches
Bilateral hand tremor
Chronic cough
Dizziness
Generalized Anxiety
Panic Attacks
Insomnia
Workups, specialists and treatments I underwent:
Orthopedic Surgeon - normal lab work, nerve conduction studies, and cervical MRI
Neurologist
Ear, Nose and Throat specialist
Psychiatry
Dentistry - retainer
Acupuncture x 3 different practitioners
Alternative medicine physician x 2 - prescribed bio-identical hormones, vitamins, supplements and herbs
Physical Therapy x 4 different practitioners
Massage - several practitioners over the years
Myofascial Release x 2 different practitioners
Non-TMS Psychotherapy
EMDR
Mindfulness Meditation and Yoga
Food Sensitivity Antibody Testing - I was told I was sensitive to 13 different foods. My diet became impossible.
What I find most concerning about this experience is that it not unusual. Many people suffer from chronic pain today and they are all on the Chronic Pain Merry-Go-Around - cycling through the hope and disappointment over and over again with each attempt at a new treatment.
My goal is to reach as many chronic pain sufferers as possible - to help them step out of the pain-hope-disappointment cycle and get back to the lives they left behind.
Alicia B. Batson MD
Center for the Treatment of Psychophysiologic Disorders, PLLC
2021 Richard Jones Road, 340B
Nashville, TN 37215
615-788-3557
http://aliciabatsonmd.com/
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So, I’m posting “My Story” today. My goal in posting such an honest account of my experience is to allow others who suffer from TMS/PPD a window into another’s experience, so that they may see themselves and find hope that they too can recover. PPD is a trickster. It can make you believe you will never get better, that every one will get better but you. Often, it helps to see that someone else had the very same symptom and recovered.
I can’t say when my story began. As I look back, there were signs in my childhood that my body was crying out. But, the big problems that I could no longer ignore started in 2003 while working in a fast-paced, high stress medical practice - too little time with patients, too much time at the computer and doing paper work, too little sleep. I developed pain in my elbows which quickly blossomed into disabling “repetitive strain injury” which resulted in my having to stop work. For the next 10 years, I stumbled from treatment to treatment trying to figure out what was wrong with my arms and meanwhile, collecting more symptoms as time went on. Well-intentioned practitioners offered me their expert treatments, doing their best to help me, to no avail. Some treatments would help for awhile, but the symptoms would always return - or would go away only to make way for another, new symptom to appear. I was only able to return to work for brief stents, ultimately being brought to my knees again by the intense computer usage - or so I believed. I spent a great deal of money trying to find the answer since most of my care occurred in the alternative medicine world. It was exhausting. It was devastating. It was terrifying. It affected every aspect of my life - my work, my family, my marriage, my social life, my health. I could list all the things the pain prevented me from doing, but just know that every aspect of my life was adversely affected. Eventually, one of my physical therapist referred me to Dr. Howard Schubiner’s website, www.unlearnyourpain.com . I am eternally grateful for this. I knew immediately that this was my problem - my mind was causing all of these physical symptoms. Even with 9 years of medical training in both psychiatry and internal medicine, this never occurred to me. What a huge relief it was for me to find someone who knew the truth, to tell me the truth ! This affirmed my experience and gave me a way forward - a way home. Considering what I had gone through the prior ten years, the treatment was a cake walk. Though it took time to undo all the fear and autonomic nervous system activation I had built up over a lifetime, recovery was steady. In a year, I began training for my first triathlon which for me, was a celebratory marker for my healing.
Below are the TMS symptoms I had and the treatments I underwent. The quotes contain diagnoses I was given.
My TMS Symptoms:
Bilateral forearm pain, tingling, numbness, subjective weakness (“repetitive strain injury”)
Trapezius/neck muscle tightness, swelling, tingling, sensitivity to touch (“long neck syndrome”)
Tinnitus
Hyperacusis (sound sensitivity)
Ear pain, popping, pressure changes
Temporomandibular Joint pain (“TMJ”)
Teeth sensitivity
Jaw clinching resulting in multiple cracked teeth
Tension headaches
Upper back muscle spasm
Lower back muscle tightness
Buttock Pain (“sacroiliac joint pain” and “pyriformis syndrome”)
Lower back and leg pain (“sciatica”)
Ankle pain (“peroneal tendonitis”)
Knee pain (“chondromalacia patella”)
Femoral Muscle strain
Ham string strain
Achilles tendonitis
Plantar Fasciitis
Rectal muscle spasm (“endometriosis”)
Constipation
Nighttime urinary frequency
Skin Rashes
Multiple food sensitivities
Eye twitches
Bilateral hand tremor
Chronic cough
Dizziness
Generalized Anxiety
Panic Attacks
Insomnia
Workups, specialists and treatments I underwent:
Orthopedic Surgeon - normal lab work, nerve conduction studies, and cervical MRI
Neurologist
Ear, Nose and Throat specialist
Psychiatry
Dentistry - retainer
Acupuncture x 3 different practitioners
Alternative medicine physician x 2 - prescribed bio-identical hormones, vitamins, supplements and herbs
Physical Therapy x 4 different practitioners
Massage - several practitioners over the years
Myofascial Release x 2 different practitioners
Non-TMS Psychotherapy
EMDR
Mindfulness Meditation and Yoga
Food Sensitivity Antibody Testing - I was told I was sensitive to 13 different foods. My diet became impossible.
What I find most concerning about this experience is that it not unusual. Many people suffer from chronic pain today and they are all on the Chronic Pain Merry-Go-Around - cycling through the hope and disappointment over and over again with each attempt at a new treatment.
My goal is to reach as many chronic pain sufferers as possible - to help them step out of the pain-hope-disappointment cycle and get back to the lives they left behind.
Alicia B. Batson MD
Center for the Treatment of Psychophysiologic Disorders, PLLC
2021 Richard Jones Road, 340B
Nashville, TN 37215
615-788-3557
http://aliciabatsonmd.com/
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