Recent content by Beawake

my email is bugbugtoby@yahoo.co.uk or BeccaFreeman on FB my child watches so much tv which i hate but what choices do we have atm!! i have guilt that im not more fun for him, it breaks my heart as i cry every day and he will come hug me and he just has that instinct to care for me, an angel...

hi, today I challenged myself to spend time with someone who I have a conditioned response around (negative gossiper) anyway, I did well, i stayed calm used breathing and the pain went down, then it went and my cfs fatigue went up, then it went down and my ibs came on, then I left and went to...

hi yes I have tried this thanks and its working : ) not all the time butive had better experiences ihave no help with my child and that does anger me actually, as people said they would but they dont. i have no income for child minder, im angry as if i had freedom rom my child id have more time...

hi and im soooo glad you posted!! i feel all that, i have a 21 month old boy and i want to scream every day, i want my freedom, i adore him, he bores me, i love him, he gets on my tits!!! hes amazing, my life is boring >>>> your not alone in how you feel, trying to heal with a kid is hardddddd...

is it possible to have bursts every few days? as that seems to be my issues, it then takes me a while to calm back down to achieve another few good days, i never make a ull week of being ok

I really need help in becoming outcome independent? i spend so much of my my day thinking about how i did well on a good day or what proof i have and how i don't need to do anything when im sitting around in pain , that its okay, but this thinking has become automatic and i know its not...

hi, ive come far with less fearing of my pain and its at lower levels more so thats great, but , and i know this is common, my fatigue is up and anxiety, but no matter how much i push through and stay calm the fatigue doesnt go away ever and so i do have some fear of it at times. i dont journal...

thank you so much a hug would be so nice right now haha i am hard on myself but i find it hard to be so nice to myself all day, i do say nice things like you can do this you are loved ect but i also frighten the crap out of myself with oh no there's people on here still not better after so long...

i have some good hours in a month but the rest of the time im unhappy and trying to convince myself all the time i can do this, its like im addicted to trying to convince myself so much im in my head all day saying come on beck you had a pain free hour thats proof, or remember when you walked to...

Thank you i really appreciate it i will listen to the podcast tonight i journaled my whole life and it dodnt work sadly, i tried journaling the days but that too did nothing i do know why i have tms, mother had tms and treated me like shit creating fear, dad left felt alone got bullied in...

Are you okay mark?