I'll try to make it quick (first post)... My name is Daniel. I started having joint issues in knees, hips, shoulders, elbows and ankles about 8 years ago (21 y/o). Eventually developed back and sacrum pain which then turned into burning stinging pain down legs and in sacrum. Developed an eating disorder in the midst (orthorexia-obsessive healthy eating). I lost a bit of weight down to 150 pounds (6'4"). I lost my job, sold my house and moved back in with parents. I also developed chronic insomnia and depression (suicidal thoughts). Pain developed all over body and imbalance/burning-numbness got worse, ended up bed ridden, using wheel chairs and walkers to get around house and clinic (27 years old at the time). I eventually put on weight by force feeding because I ended up having all kinds of gastro issues through anxiety etc. My body got a bit better from weight gain (220 lbs now) but still had to use cane to get around and can't really stand, sit or walk for very long. By the way, throughout all this time I had gotten so many tests and exams by doctors and specialists that I can't even begin to count (I had good insurance at the time). Everything was negative... Emg (nerve tests) tests shows a little delay, but I'm sure that's only because of TMS. It is. I'm 29 now and heard of the wonderful Dr. Sarno about a week ago. Immediately before even reading the book I had a huge reduction in many symptoms. I was so excited that my insomnia got even worse (maybe a diversion). I went for a jog the other day for the first time in more than 5 years! For whatever reason though I still seem to struggle with many things like sitting and standing (lots of burning pain, numbness and feeling of imbalance). I feel like I'm a bit worse now than I was 5 or 6 days ago compared to when I just heard about Dr. Sarno. I've almost finished his book now, I've watched his dvd and I've watched success stories on YouTube. I know I need to stop worrying about not getting better or that I may be one of those 5% ers that need a lot of therapy to get better. I do worry about my future a bit still too. My personality matches almost identical with what I read "TMS'ers" have. One of the main things I worry about too is that I won't figure out all the repressed emotions of my past and that I won't write them all down (perfectionism). I want to make sure I'm not missing anything so I can finally get rid of this pain (I'm sure I'm going about that wrong). Anybody have any advice about the sitting or standing? I'm also worried about the fact that people will think I'm nuts if they start seeing me running and walking around without a cane just because I read a book. Thanks for reading this if you got this far! Hope the best for all of you!!