Hey Team, I lasted posted in the forum a little over a month ago. You can read my story here if you'd like: http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/and-they-said-i-had-fibromyalgia-pff.17555/ (Day 1 - And they said I had fibromyalgia....pff) I had just finished reading Fred Amir's book and was determined that TMS was my diagnosis(Also read MindBody Prescription). I spoke with a couple experts and they diagnosed me after I cleared all my blood tests and MRIs. I was so confident that I went back to my daily activities. I was back at the gym lifting heavy weights, running, typing, reading, and doing my day to day with little to no pain. I was so confident and happy that I wanted to actually study more about TMS so I could maybe be a therapist that could help others(I never cared for my current career and this stuff excited me!). Things kept up for about 1 month and then I returned to work this past Monday. Things got to there worst when I left work in July 2017 and decided to focus on fixing my pain. During this time I had symptoms of RSI in my hands, fibromyalgia, feet pain, knee pain, hip pain, blurred vision, constant eye strain, tension headaches, etc. I've also had anxiety and have felt depressed from the pain over the past year(Started early 2017). I understood I would get some sensations going back to work, but I didn't expect the sensations I'm getting now. It feels like something crawling under my skin and tender points throughout my body. I especially get it in my shoulder, forearms, chest, shin, and the top of my feet. I also get tension headaches and eye strain all day again. The pain is almost all day, but I power through it. It started at work, but came home with me. I face the sensations, but I cant help feel scared and sink into depressive thoughts of this never going away even though i felt so close to being better less than 2 weeks ago. I was so happy to have my life back and was going to be moving out with my gf soon, but I almost feel like I need to put that on hold. I'm extremely observant of my body and mind. I know consciously I should face the fear, feel the sensations, but continue with my day. I also know that work adds to my sensations, but I want to face it first instead of running to another job cause I don't believe that'll help. I feel like I'm constantly battling in my head with how everything I do, is for the hopes of getting rid of my pain and I obsess over getting better. I'm seeing a therapist who specializes in TMS, but it's a couple days before our next session and I feel anxious lately. Does anyone have any thoughts or words of encouragement? I've even started to doubt what I have is TMS even though logically, it makes sense. I've always been one to think the worst, even though I saw improvement and was diagnosed by specialists. The sensations feel different than before and it scares me. More than anything I wish I had that same "Aha!" moment when I finished reading Fred Amir's book and first came to this TMS.wiki page. That positivity and certainty left and I want it back with the authentic feel. Now i feel like I'm faking it or forcing it. Thanks in advance to anyone who has advice.