Hi there, I apologise for this in advance if it is too long and thank you in advance for any help you might have. I completely understand that being exasperated does not work and that frustration with my situation does not help. However, my life is completely shite and has been for 3 years. Iread Sarno's books, read all I could lay my hands on re TMS and felt I had finally found an answer to my dilemma back in November. Recognising that my story was complicated and not likely to shift on reading, I decided to get some TMS therapy on Skype. My initial enthusiasm was tangible and as a typical TMS T type, I set out to do everything right. Of course this is wrong too and consequently, I have had no results. My world has become so small and my dreams smaller and not being able to walk is literally driving me nuts. I do not have pain which is hard when everyone mentions pain, but the dropfoot and subsequent weakness in my dorsiflexors is marked. With one session of therapy a week, I feel fine for that hour then next day I have gone off track. It is significant that this is the first time in my life that I am not in a relationship and do not have family, which as a really sociable person is hideous. I know I can not get back out into the world unless I can walk and yet trying too hard to get back out there is making it all worse. I am thrilled that others are finding their way through, but don't understand what I am doing wrong. I am smart, I feel I should know better but I am tying myself up in knots. I crave a more normal life, I haven't been in a shop for two years or been out for a meal. I have to troubleshoot the day just to feed and clothe myself and enough is enough. Please give me your thoughts on this - I factor in doing some meditation and understand the 12 points - but I seem to be going backwards!! If you are a UK citizen I would also love to hear from you.