Hi, Not sure if anyone will take the time to read this, but I feel like putting my thoughts into writing is going to be the best place to start. I am 23 year old male, I have recently finished school and I am a recently qualified heavy vehicle engineer, i have an amazing girlfriend and am in the process of building my first home. I have always battled problems with anxiety and I am the type of person that always had a medical issue of some form but at the same time am always proven to be fit and healthy. I stumbled onto TMS, by excessively googling symptoms after being diagnosed with acute epididymitis, only 2 weeks ago but I have since convinced myself I have chronic epididymitis that I will live with forever and worked myself into anxious, depressed, pretty messed up place. This is not uncommon for me, last year while in the final weeks of school, I was getting constant one sided headaches and again after working myself up, obsessive googling and numerous trips to the doctor, I was convinced I had a permanent condition called hemicrania continua, until after completing school, the headaches, disappeared. Now that I think about it, I can trace these 'conditions' back years and years. 2 years ago it manifested as a tight chest, unable to take a satisfying breathe, this lasted weeks and weeks and after numerous visits to the doctor and ER trip, it just one day up and disappeared. The further back I think, the more and more problems I can remember. I have suffered from these problems my whole life, starting in primary school, when the anxiety first started; gastro, chronic headaches, back pain, breathing difficulty, pelvic pain, knee pain, eye problems. In the late teenage years it was mostly chronic back pain, gastrointestinal issues and mild panic attacks. You name it, i've suffered from it and after all the doctors visits, googling and working myself up into an anxious mess...The problems eventually disappear. I have period of feeling great, care free, healthy but these periods only last until I start to wonder, how long the feeling will last and BAM, I have another issue. Another thing i have noticed is how I always seem to be "sick" leading up to and on the day of situations I have been anxious about. Christmas, birthdays, working away, important days at school and any type of social situations. So basically, from the outside I look like I have my life together and am the envy of people around me but on the inside is a constant battle between my mind and my body and I have had enough, the constant worrying, the illnesses and the horrible feeling in my gut of something just not being right! Not really sure where to go next, i suppose i'm basically looking for some confirmation that im on the right track, I have ordered the mind body prescription to read, hoping it will sort out the current pain in my groin, so I can get on with my life! but other than that I'm not really sure what the hell to do next! Apologies, for the long winded speech, feels good to finally put that into writing!