I am only on Day 9, taking it slowly in order to be thorough. I know there are a lot of forms of self abuse, and to be aware of it now is overwhelming. I would never treat another person the way I treat myself: "I should . . . " "Why can't I . . . " "Why did I do that . . ." -- even when I do something minor like drop a jar lid on the floor. I never talked to my children that way when they were growing up. I want to say, "What's wrong with me . . . " but I know that is another form of abuse. I can't remember a time in life when I wasn't hard on myself, so this is a roadblock, not knowing how to change the inner dialogue (monologue).