Am at the end of my tether. Around two years ago started new, albeit intense, job and at the same time turned 50 (which really didn't bother me). Then 'fell in love' and started applying to do a Masters (which I recently completed). So far so familiar? Soon after all these events two years ago, for no apparent reason, severe back pain and foot drop. MRI - herniated discs surgery recommend. Instead went to chiropractor. So far so familiar? Discovered Sarno and noticed some changes but probably not convinced regarding the TMS theory. Nevertheless, more recently, re-reading Sarno books - including divided mind. Noticed better walking and less pressure on back foot etc, but then symptoms get worse. Pressure on back and feeling in my foot like concrete. Notice other things, however. Wake up and dull ache in buttocks and then the other morning pain in arm. Just getting fed up - really need to believe that it's a mind thing but can't help thinking that it's not. Help!