Hello, I have read plenty of forums on this website, but this is my first posting. I have decided to share my story as it has forever changed my life, and I feel as if most medical professionals I came across were puzzled by my symptoms. One year ago, a week after I applied for physical therapy school, the lower left side of my face started tingling as I was studying for an exam. This sensation immediately worried me, and I went into a mode of extreme fight or flight. I could not shake the feeling that something was insanely wrong with me. Then my face and neck began to feel very numb (sensory, not motor). I could feel intense pressure coming from my neck muscles. The next day during my exam, my whole head was tingling, and I could not even focus because I was so concerned about what I was feeling. I made a doctor's appointment, and he sort of brushed me off initially because I am young and active, and appear very healthy. He told me all my tests would probably come back negative, and to my complete surprise, they all did. I was on and off muscle relaxers for six months. Tizidaine was the most effective in reducing my symptoms, but I stopped taking it when I discovered the book 'Mind Body Prescription.' I tried every physical treatment possible, and all reduced my symptoms initially, but I realized this was most likely the placebo effect in place. I tried: -cervical pillow -cervical traction -physical therapy -chiropractor -acupuncture -massage -CBD cream, lidocaine patches, tiger balm -cortisone injections and pills -trigger point injections -dry needling -heat and ice -biofreeze/Cooling Agent and Stretch -magnesium supplements After ALL of this, in my worst moments in early March, I could not even get out of bed to go to work because my symptoms shifted to my right side of my face and neck and were very intense. I feared that every movement I was making was contributing to my symptoms, and I was so scared I was going to end up with permanent nerve damage. I restricted myself from sitting in certain positions, driving in a car seemed to be a trigger, and my waitress job at work. Initially, I believed this to be an overuse injury of my neck muscles since I carry plates on my left arm at work. However, once my symptoms shifted to the other side, I questioned how that was even possible. I searched on google '100% cure from myofascial pain syndrome' because I could not accept that I was supposed to live with this for the rest of my life. I found an article about a woman's recovery and how it sounds so crazy that a book helped her eliminate her chronic pain. At first, when I heard the concept of repressed rage, I felt as if this could not apply to me because nothing in life ever truly makes me feel angry inside. I felt far from being an angry person. I lacked understanding at this point and later began to realize and understand the concept at a deeper level. When I first began reading 'Mind Body Prescription' I developed really intense back pain for about two weeks. I tried to reason that it was because I was laying in bed all day and that I have not been as active. I truly felt as if my body was breaking down. When I learned about the symptom imperative, I then began to realize that is exactly what my back pain was and it subsided. Then I developed jaw pain, and chest pain that I used to have even returned. This experience fascinated me. I learned that prior symptoms I had to myofascial pain syndrome, were somehow all mind-body equivalents and ultimately connected. My TMS symptoms all began during my senior year of college. A time period of increasing pressures and I dedicated almost no time for myself. I pushed myself relentlessly, and then my body began to speak to me in a way that I did not understand. My main symptoms: (2018-2019) Had random tinnitus in ears occasionally (March 2019) At 4 am studying for an exam one day, I developed severe chest pain that lasted for 5 months. June 2019 (started developing random benign rashes when studying for a graduate exam) September 2019 (developed myofascial pain syndrome) Before all of this, I did not consider myself to be an anxious person. I always can remain calm in every situation and am often stoic and people often tell me they have no idea what I think of them. The driving factor in my life that made me anxious was college and getting accepted to physical therapy school, and this led me to push myself relentlessly. I would consider myself to have perfectionist tendencies, where I expect a great deal of myself and am constantly trying to better myself. I strive to be the best in every area of my life, and often accept challenges because I enjoy pushing myself. I would not say I show myself much compassion, as most of my accomplishments never seem to be enough for me. I am always working towards the next thing and repressing emotions along the way to prevent them from getting in the way of my success. My question is, how am I supposed to ultimately change this and eliminate my symptoms? I understand so much of this information as I read upon it daily and have implemented it into my everyday life. I understand acceptance is huge and acknowledging the reservoir of rage. However, if I feel I am more successful by not being emotional, how am I supposed to learn to feel these emotions? Sometimes I am not aware of the emotions I feel, it is very hard for me to decipher. Does it sound as if my symptoms are being caused by my personality qualities and not showing emotions? Or life pressures or core issues? Or all of the above contributing? I am working on the life pressures aspect because I am trying to release the things I cannot control and give it to God. I feel though as if my personality is hard to change because part of me likes that I am not emotional because I feel the people who are emotional are in a sense weak. It is a really weird belief and I am sure it is something from my childhood that has engrained this in me. I have got to a point where my symptoms are typically 50% better I have also completely reduced my symptoms for up to a whole week several times the past few months, which makes me more than grateful. When my symptoms return, is it often due to a trigger of a subconscious emotion? Or an overly sensitized nervous system that still needs work through processing unfelt emotions? Any sense of feedback would be appreciated, I apologize that this is so long.