It seems like this site is mostly for people who have already been diagnosed with TMS, is that right? I am not. I'm kind of a mess right now. I'm 40 and I feel like my whole body is getting weaker and more susceptible to injury by the day. I've always been in pretty good health, but I've also had a string of weird, inexplicable health problems that seem to defy diagnosis and are unresponsive to treatment, and they gradually go away without me ever really knowing what they were. For the past few months I've been having extreme discomfort/numbness/paresthesias when sitting down, no matter how soft or hard the chair is. I'm a software developer, and I sit more than I should. But now it feels like I'm sitting on rocks. I'm also having pain/discomfort in my feet when standing for more than a short time... similar paresthesias, numbness, and prickly feelings. The sensations in my behind and my feet are similar. I'm also noticing that my legs can sometimes start to go numb, or my hands, if I apply any pressure or hold them in any kind of awkward position. So I basically have the option to sit and feel nasty, or stand and feel nasty. Or lie in bed. That feels pretty good... but I haven't stopped doing any of my ordinary activities. I've been to the podiatrist numerous times. He has no idea. I've done a course of physical therapy, including dry needling, ultrasound, trigger point release, exercises, TENS, etc., which hasn't helped at all. I have a standing desk and a treadmill beneath it, and I can walk fine (actually, walking makes it feel better). My point is, I don't really know what to do. I keep thinking that I must have some systemic illness which is making my nerves ultra-sensitive to pressure. I'm super thin, and I've never been able to build muscle, so it just feels like my bones and nerves are clinking against hard surfaces, and there's no hope for fixing it. I'm considering whether I go down the road of testing for diabetes, MS, copper/Vitamin B/Vitamin D/deficiencies, cancer, blood clots in my behind, etc. etc. That seems like an expensive and discouraging route, and my confidence of finding an answer is low. I'm afraid they will just say I'm old now and that's it (actually, I'm irrationally terrified of them saying that). So the thing is, I would desperately like to find out it's TMS because the concept is appealing and I'm close to the end of my rope. But I've read the Sarno book, and I don't have (and have never really had) back pain or many of the "canonical" symptoms. Another thing is, I don't really feel like I have any repressed or forgotten emotions. Most of my life I've been acutely aware of my feelings. Even now, I frequently think of my childhood and specific, formative incidents and traumas. All the time. So when I've journaled, it hasn't been much of an exercise in discovering new material. I know myself and have spent hundreds of hours over decades introspecting. That said, I'm kind of an emotional wreck. I have same-sex attraction, but I'm also very religious and don't believe in pursuing that kind of relationship. So I've spent a lot of time in my life dealing with agonizing loneliness and feelings of abandonment, and lately I've been feeling a distinct lack of support in my life. But, I'm aware of all of this. I don't think my brain has any secrets from me. Also, I called Dr. Schechter's office and it's $400 for me to have a video appointment with him. I'm not sure I want to drop that kind of cash to pursue a diagnosis, but I'm the kind who will not believe it unless some authority tells me (and even then I struggle, especially when it's with someone holding a hammer, to whom everything looks like a nail). I recently made a chart of all the health problems I've had over the past few years. I've dealt with voice muscle problems, light sensitivity, severe almost career-ending eyestrain, heart palpitations, stomach issues, mysterious painful hearing hypersensitivity, etc. None of these have been helped (or scarcely even diagnosed) by doctors, and all of them have resolved on their own after a while (sometimes a long while), in spite of tests and useless treatments. And it seems that after one resolves, a couple months go by, and another one starts. So I guess I'm just looking for a little guidance? I'm afraid to go full-bore into TMS while there's still so much to test to rule out actual health problems.