I just finished reading Dr. Sarno's book (Healing Back Pain) and am getting ready to start "The Divided Mind." MRI shows I have three herniated discs, with the most severe at L5/S1. The pain is so bad that I'm now confined to bed - when I try to walk and move around everything locks up so tight, causing crippling pain in my lower back and down my leg to where I can't walk. Once I have an attack like this I lay here with restless leg/nerve pain for 2+ hours before it calms down again. I also have chronic issues with my Si joint going out of alignment - it doesn't seem to hold an adjustment. I'll go months with it being okay, and then BAM, one day it will go out and will be continual chiro treatments to have it jammed back in until it finally decides to "hold" again. I have had back issues (back going out) since my teens (I'm 41 now, and otherwise generally healthy female, BTW). Of note is that I've also had issues with "nervous stomach/diarrhea" over the years, and have recently had blurred vision issues in my left eye that comes and goes (to which my optometrist and an eye specialist they sent me to can't find anything wrong). I also have frequent urination brought on by nerves/anxiety. We met with a surgeon last week who is waiting for me to pull the trigger to have a microdiscectomy to relieve the immediate pain (and I'm almost desperate enough to do it). After reading Dr. Sarno's book I'm trying to come to better understanding to whether I have a literal physical problem, or whether this is TMS. (It's hard to convince myself 100% that I don't have a physical problem - I'm trying VERY hard to believe, but I keep seeing the horrible MRI results, and when I stand up the gravity makes the pain worse. I am trying to explore TSM as a last resort before surgery (I'm definitely not a "doctor" person and do try to take alternative routes whenever humanly possible) Over the last several months I have had chiropractic treatment (adjustments, FSM (frequency specific microtherapy), acupuncture, cold laser, etc. I have also been seeing a Naprapath (fascia/tendon/ligament bodywork). Here's the kicker - a week and half ago I was doing so well with these treatments that I was walking around - was able to go to the grocery store by myself (I literally haven't been able to even sit for 2+ months and was finally making baby steps of progress with it), and even wore heels with a dress during that week. And then just an hour after my last Naprapathic treatment last Friday I was in exruciating pain (worse than ever) and have been in bed unable to walk or even stand (hardly) ever since. I am trying to employ the "speak to your brain" and "focus on emotion," but quite honestly, I don't know what I'm doing. How do I attribute the pain to one thing/emotion? How do I know if/when I'm getting it right? I can sit here and recognize my issues from childhood to now (never being good enough, regrets over choices I've made, people pleaser, fear is huge for me - I seem to fear everything though you would never know it as I come off confident and happy, etc, etc) I have resorted to taking Oxycontin on a couple of occasions, plus Advil/Aleve day and night, but I hate the idea of drugs and so try to tough it out laying in bed as much as I'm able. Please help!