The first week of this journey has been intense to say the least. It gave me the first glimmer of hope I've had in a very long time. Journaling has definitely been therapeutic for me, beginning to learn to understand FEELING my emotions instead of just thinking about them. The past 3 days have been tough though since I've been journaling about extremely painful things that are giving rise to high stress, I think. I woke up yesterday with pain in my back that lead to me going "crooked" as I call it. As i've said in other posts I was diagnosed with sacroiliac joint dysfunction and ligament laxity. When I go "crooked" I literally lean to one side and it becomes painful to sit, walk or do anything but lay down. I tried to fight it by going along in my day as if I was fine and it worked for a bit, but today it's worse and I'm feeling sad. I knew it wouldn't be a perfect line to healing, but it's very upsetting and discouraging when it happens. I am trying everything not to focus on the pain and being crooked, but I know it's going to take practice. I am so grateful for this program and am just looking for some encouraging words and comfort. Thank you all.