Hello, I am a 30 year old man and have dealt w TMS for 3.5 years. I have seen a TMS doctor various times, all of which he told me that I have TMS. I for some reason still struggle deeply with the disorder. I have spoken personally w Steve Ozanich, who also has told me I fit all the descriptions. I also see a TMS therapist regularly who is convinced I have it, too. Clearly, I have it. But new symptoms regularly pop up and I am so scared that they are actually injuries. Despite this, I run regularly and very hard and try to lead a normal life. I practice lots, exercise and try to carry heavy objects. A little background, I am a professional pianist and have a successful music career in NYC. I work hard and am constantly trying to get better and do better professionally. I come from an abusive childhood. I was diagnosed w Tourettes when I was 5. I'm sure that relates to TMS. I also have been on and off anti depressants/anxiety meds for the past 10 years but currently don't take them. I think the answer for me is in understanding why I am so angry (childhood abuses, abandonment, perfectionism, goodism, current life events) and then learning to truly be gentler and kinder to myself. Seems like forgiveness wouldn't hurt either. I hope someone can shed light and just give me a kind word as I have been dealing with this for so long and am very upset.