Hello all. I need help. (sorry for my long story, I have trouble making things short) So here's the thing... in the summer, I started feeling very "off".. in particular very extreme sleepiness in my head. I guess you could call it brain fog. I didn't feel like I had one foot in the grave or anything, but it was certainly annoying and bothersome. At the time I happened to be starting a functional medicine course for my career, in which part of it was doing functional lab tests on myself. Well, I found out a lot of my hormones were off, so I tightened up my diet a bit and used a bunch of the recommended supplements and I definitely have felt better. I recently went further and did a stool gut test, and while I'm not that surprised, I showed pretty high markers for intestinal permeability (aka leaky gut), and also somewhat elevated antibodies to gluten. As well as parasites, bacteria, yeast, etc. So, I didn't think the gluten antibodies seemed that high but then yesterday I had a consultation with a fellow (much more experienced) practitioner, and how she interpreted the whole thing was that I better go on a strict gluten free diet, probably for life. So the marker was not celiac per se (she suggested I get tested for it), but I guess I have confirmed some kind of sensitivity. According to the test. And gluten contributes to the leaky gut. So they say. So it's gotta go, and it's gotta be strict, as if I was celiac, she said. Because allegedly even the tiniest exposure re-ignites the antibodies and they stay in your system for 3 to 6 months. But basically, I've been crying for a whole day and in denial. I really, really don't want it to be true. Not eating gluten is one thing, but do you realize how people with celiac have to live? (my heart feels you, celiacs). Seems to me a miserable existence with extreme paranoia as even the tracest bit of gluten cross contamination can make you sick (and gluten is everywhere)... can't kiss your husband if he's eaten bread, can't use the same dishes, can't travel, basically can't eat at restaurants, can't ever go to anyone's house for dinner ever again unless you bring your own food. you can never have a true holiday ever again (because to me it's not really a holiday if I have to worry about cooking and grocery shopping). Sure I can do it for 6 months. Or a year. But for the rest of my life????? She said it like it was just no big f'n deal. Yeah right. I have eaten very strict before out of fear (I used to have bad acne). I was miserable. I am all for healthy eating, but when you're prone to being a control freak, a strict, can't ever mess it up diet for the rest of your life feels like a prison sentence. It's just not really something I want to undertake lightly. But on the other hand, leaky gut is the root cause of auto-immune disorders. I don't want an auto-immune disorder. So I don't want to just dismiss this. The jury here seems to be out here on whether auto-immune or leaky gut or parasites or this realm of stuff is TMS or not. I want so bad for it to be TMS. I am here because I had RSI for a year and a half. I was into Sarno but I didn't fully believe it. I was too scared of the establishment. The one where they tell you you'll end up disabled if you don't sit perfectly all the time. It got to the point where things got bad, and I felt a weight of the world as I buckled down to never ever relax with my laptop on the coach ever again. I was not happy about this at all, but I felt it had to be done and was very anxious about it. I actually was thinking that I was using the TMS theory as an excuse to be lazy and in denial about my need to be better ergonomically. Turned out in the end, it really was RSI all along and I dodged a very anxiety inducing bullet. I was talked off the cliff, thanks to the lovely people in this forum. The parallels seem similar................... Here I am about to plunge into a strict diet that I know will make me feel paranoid and limited. I definitely don't want to do it, but I am afraid to not do it because I fear the consequences, and I'm concerned that I'm just in denial and looking for the "easy" way out with TMS. I want to do what's best for my health. But also my sanity. But unlike my RSI, I have actual lab tests for this. Plus there isn't as much conviction on this forum for this kind of thing being TMS (compared to RSI). That's a lot for my belief to contend with. Where does TMS end and "actually things medically wrong with you" begin???? HALP!!