@miffybunny
Thank you for your response. I do truly love your advice.
I need you to follow me around and correct me every five minutes for a few weeks then I'd be good haha.
I think finding out about tms has been a blessing and a curse.
A blessing that nothing is wrong with me and healing fully is possible.
A curse because seeing all the different theories and treatments confused me and made me worse. I got way to caught up in the emotions which I don't think are MY problem (I bet for a lot that's not true).
I really think my ten plus years of anxiety and panic attack have just left me to pain. I don't think I have to think any harder than that. I think I can let go of not journaling write or not changing my life or finding that hidden secret.
I think I've just learned to be anxious from thoughts and then become afraid of symotoms. That's it!!!
So I think I'm going to lay most "tms work" down and simplify.
Mindfulness meditation really helps me, so I'll keep that in conjunction with trying to stop fearing symptoms and doubting myself every step of the way.
There is no reason to change anythibg in my life, it's objectively good. I just need the gratitude and perception change.
I think there night be many of these type out here. The anxiety-staryed-tms NOT anxiety-is-jusy-another-symptom