I have halvheartedly been trying to commit to TMS for about 2 years without much success. After my symptoms moved around a lot the worst one I have (TMJ) finally seems to stay in my facial muscles. I have none of the other ones at the moment. It has never been worse and I realise that I have to believe 100% that it is TMS which I have been doing for a few months. When I journal I recall 5-6 episodes from my childhood wich have been terrible for me and which - according to my gut - have laid the foundation for my feeling unworthy, a bad person, anxious, insecure and having depression. The feelings even seem to get worse as I get older (probably because I HAVE to deal with the repressed ones now). When I imagine myself as a child I usually start crying and I really feel sorry for her as she was unable to express how the treatment she got made her feel. My question is: How long do I have to do that? I am expressing my emotions but I guess this could go on and on as it is an open wound. I will never be able to change what happened and what it did to me. If my mother could say she was sorry to that child it would probably make a difference. But I know this will never happen. My grown up part has also forgiven my mother. However my inner child cannot and will not. It wants justice (otherwise there is anger). Maybe the answer is to soothe my inner child and I have tried that too but I have still a very negative pattern and cannot distract from where it all comes from.. Is journaling an ever ongoing process and is realising once and for all where it comes from not enough?