MissShamrocks
Peer Supporter
I have had a recurrence of TMS over the past month. At first I didn't believe it to be TMS, because I believed the arthritis in my SI joints was something serious and I could make worse by bending, kneeling, lifting, sitting, etc (just listing those is tiring). I starting reading one of Steve O's books and it really started to make sense that it was TMS, but still, over the past years of my journey, I felt something was missing. I wasn't sure what it was. I had some therapy, I did a few mind/body programs, which all definitely helped, but my pain never shifted in a way that was a WOW moment.
I got linked to Nicole Sachs' book on Amazon. I thought, why not, I'll give it a try. The first few chapters, I really wasn't connecting to but stayed the course and I'm glad I did. When she started to explain her own journey with pain and told stories of some of her clients, I was blown away. Their pain was even more debilitating than my own and journaling helped them? Okay, I'll give it a go. I made the lists that she suggested and crossed off my first topic. And boy did I let it that anger come out! I was saying things I was consciously aware of, and other things were much deeper. No shift in pain yet, but didn't expect that. I'm trying to be as patient with myself and this process as I can even though I'm OVER living in pain.
Day two - I wrote about a situation with a long time friend that occurred a week or so before the pain came on. It was something that left me very angry....enraged even. I was deeply hurt by her actions but I felt the anger more than the hurt, I then tend to numb out after the initial "pissed off moment." When the pain came on, my focused shifted (tricky, tricky) to the physical pain. So I sat down, back hurting, pen to paper and hauled off on her for a good 15 to 20 mins. When I was done, my pain level dropped from a 5 to almost non existent. It was my ah-ha moment! I knew I had rage in there, but never really knew how to get it OUT of my body. I sat there, closed my eyes and just noticed the sensations in my body for a few minutes. Not trying to change them, just being an observer. I am really hopeful this time and it may not be linear or take one journaling session, but I know I will be okay.
Has anyone else experienced a shift in symptoms like this from journaling?
I got linked to Nicole Sachs' book on Amazon. I thought, why not, I'll give it a try. The first few chapters, I really wasn't connecting to but stayed the course and I'm glad I did. When she started to explain her own journey with pain and told stories of some of her clients, I was blown away. Their pain was even more debilitating than my own and journaling helped them? Okay, I'll give it a go. I made the lists that she suggested and crossed off my first topic. And boy did I let it that anger come out! I was saying things I was consciously aware of, and other things were much deeper. No shift in pain yet, but didn't expect that. I'm trying to be as patient with myself and this process as I can even though I'm OVER living in pain.
Day two - I wrote about a situation with a long time friend that occurred a week or so before the pain came on. It was something that left me very angry....enraged even. I was deeply hurt by her actions but I felt the anger more than the hurt, I then tend to numb out after the initial "pissed off moment." When the pain came on, my focused shifted (tricky, tricky) to the physical pain. So I sat down, back hurting, pen to paper and hauled off on her for a good 15 to 20 mins. When I was done, my pain level dropped from a 5 to almost non existent. It was my ah-ha moment! I knew I had rage in there, but never really knew how to get it OUT of my body. I sat there, closed my eyes and just noticed the sensations in my body for a few minutes. Not trying to change them, just being an observer. I am really hopeful this time and it may not be linear or take one journaling session, but I know I will be okay.
Has anyone else experienced a shift in symptoms like this from journaling?
