It's all fear.

There is impatience and then there is reactivity.
Reactivity is automatically always drama, worst case.

@Adam Coloretti (coach) is right. No more excuses. Do the work. Go deeper.

 

Thanks a lot guys. I'm much calmer. I also feel resentment to the holistic dentistry mafia of the root canal tooth fear. They scared me a lot with it.

One thing that I don't understand is, why the type of pain that I have is so scary? I used to have back pain, when I was studying, but it wasn't as scary as feeling these burns, and also, why does the brain produces your symptom if you let your mind process the thought?

The other day I was watching a video, about a guy "cured" from TMS. He was being interviewed by Dan, but then he confessed that the day before the interview, he thought about it's TMS symptom and the symptom return again. Why? Why does the brain reproduces symptoms that are unease to deal with? Is it just a matter of releasing these emotions? It seems sadistic. Sometimes it seem like a bad habit, such as when you have a nervous tic. In the 16 years I was pain free, I remember feeling these burns sporadically, and then thinking it to myself it was related to WiFi radiation, and they went away immediately. I dint fear them. I wish I still believed that sometimes it is handy to have an scapegoat.

 

We don't have the best answer yet. fMRIs are slowly getting more used, and good research is really hard to be done, given all the variables.

Right now you'll get a lot of different answers which will bring frustration and confusion.

For now, stick to the basics. It's some sort of glitch that keeps your limbic system in danger mode.

 

Echoing what Adam said to you, which I why I brought up Buddhism to you a while ago. Filipe, I’m going to say this bluntly, you come across as really dogmatic with your opinions-whether that’s stuff like politics and vaccines, or overall health stuff (cancer is definitively TMS etc), dating, women and feminism. I don’t think you grasp how much you have likely been preyed on by the media and the modern internet and now you hold so tightly to ideas and concepts that are actually harming your ability to function and navigate the world. Yes I’ve been where you are, in many ways I’m still where you are holding on to things that no longer serve me. I think you need to have a long deep sit down with yourself and really reflect on how you’re living and what you’re putting out into the world. You deserve better but a first step is acknowledging dysfunction.

 

My TMS journey opened my eyes. It made me dive into big pharma, Rockefeller, why they call certain people quacks, why they pursuit and kill holistic doctors. It made me doubt about other things such as why wars are created, pandemics are establish. Why, despite all the millions they spend on research, there is no cure for any of the so called autoimune diseases, why they say it is a miracle, when someone cure themselves from terminal cancer. Money. There is no profit in healthy people.

But, I reach to a point where I don't care anymore. I just stop watching the news. But we have to deal with life, and it's not easy task. My relapse started when my tooth fell, I guess that was a sign that I was getting old. You may manage your emotions, but you cannot grew new teeth. Being a TMS master won't free you from old age, watching your loved ones dying, and being forced to be confined at home, without the curing power of the sun, and the beach, because the government orders you to. I was forbidden to go to the beach during the pandemic. Why? Because Bill gates have loads of money, and wants to sell vaccines.

 

Not going to debate your views here, I think you’re right on some stuff and wrong on others.

my point is, what good has holding these views so tightly done for you? Because it sounds like they’ve just led to you imploding relationships and friendships and isolating yourself and breeding resentment and perpetuating your dis-ease and loneliness.

2020 was a time of political instability here in the US. I was already a fairly radicalized person but became even moreso. I was arrogant and judgey, proselytizing to friends, family, coworkers. I honestly shudder from who I was then, honestly I was just a giant asshole. A dysfunctional small person trying to leave his mark, I was acting out of ego, not goodness.

I’ve been vegan 10ish years, and like with politics I used to be really judgmental. Used to think everyone was a giant hypocrite, wondering how they don’t care, having imaginary arguments in my mind confronting people. I remember when I first started dating my ex (she was also vegan) and she sent me a picture of what she was eating, and I was fairly certain it wasn’t vegan (had gelatin), and while I didn’t say anything, I remember judging the shit out of her in my mind, I was judging this poor girl who I’d known for 2 weeks over a fucking POP TART. What a start to a relationship!

all this bullshit directly led to me generating physical symptoms not to mention the anxiety and depression and massive regrets.


When we are extremely dysfunctional it is really easy to look outward, to find faults and blames and trying to organize our world and belief systems around them. Rather than actually working on ourselves, becoming a higher version of ourselves and actually someone who people will want to stay around and be inspired by

 

No, I'm not holding my view points. The fact is that John Sarno saved my life, while big pharma only gave me pills that worsen the situation. My health anxiety is due to the promoted Idea that we are seating ducks in what diseases are concerned. What I want to say is that I think as Sarno said, health care in the USA, and all over the world, is doing more harm than good, and it is intentionally. It relays I. The nocebo, and the placebo effect. I mean, why scaring people? Most of my fear from diseases is due to big pharma vudu medicine. I thought I was imune to it but I wasn't. The health industry knows what they are doing

My problem is still fear, fear from having cancer, throat cancer, thyroid cancer, etc, it still scares me, when it's TMS. Most of the people that don't recover from chronic pain, us due to the fear conventional medicine promotes all the time. Every day you heard about cancer, pain, neurological diseases. You are bombarded with it. Well if it is fear that cause those diseases, why do they scares us on media, etc? To makes us sick, that's why. I'm not immune, because we are mortal.

 

okay Filipe, I’m going to spell it out, because I don’t think you’re understanding what I’m Implying. Your own words in a post a few weeks ago explains how your wife got cancer, and against your better wishes, got conventional treatment and thankfully survived. You admit to resenting her for this, so a rift was created which led to the end of the marriage. You prioritized your own incorrect view ( yes your view on cancer is objectively incorrect) and your ego over a relationship. I’ve been exactly where you were. My point is that you still prioritize holding on so tightly to things and views that do nothing for you. I only mention this because you brought up Covid and judging your friends who were scared during a tumultuous time, as well as earlier threads regarding your views and relationships with women. This is a much bigger issue than TMS. This is you being dragged around on a leash by your ego. Thinking these silly little things that pop into our heads (thoughts) are worth engaging with and basing our life around.

 

She would have survived if she didn't take the poison, that's how capable our body is. She would have been more confident with herself and her body. Do you really think our body wants to kill us?!?!She still have both breasts, now she has a scar . Now, she is the net of the spider. Like Olivia Newton John. Once you fall in big pharma trap, you will never get out. But there is a limit of what poison your body can take

Fear is the only thing that prevents us from being healthy.

 

This shit is what happens when you recover from TMS with your ego fully in tact and running the show.

I genuinely feel fucking sorry for you that you think this instead of just finding gratitude that your wife survived with the path she chose.

 

We have a friend that did exactly the same treatment. Her cancer was not as serious as my wife's was. She died in few months. How did you justify it? Luck?

I'm feeling a sudden increase in pain .

Do you really, really think a poison can cure?!?!???!!?

 

I didn't mean to upset you. I don't have taboos in health.

 

Guys, it doesnt matter at all. Cancer is weird. I dont like cancer. Let it go. You have bigger fish to fry mate. I can and do sit here worrying about loads of things that dont affect me whatsoever.

Theres 9/11, the moon landing, whatever else. I see people on X complaining about chem trails. What the fuck can we do about chemtrails. I vould decide there were chem trails, make it my entire personality and just my whole life could be chem trails. I wish i were a better narrator cause theres a few languages in which i could put this so eloquently but right now your wifes cured cancer isnt your biggest problem. It doesnt matter for you how cancer is cured. If there were chem trails, you couldnt do shit about them.

I for one am really worried about microplastics nanoplastics and pfas. I dont want them in my balls and i dont want to be infertile. At a certain point however, youve done all you can. I could go to a restaurant and worry about the plastic cutting boards, or the non stick pans or whatever else. When my mom bakes me a cake will i worry about the baking tray? Will I ever allow myself to enjoy anything?

It serves as a distraction, its just like tms in that sense. When i used to talk with these conspiracy people one thing was so clear to me; they were stuck in their head all the time. They werent feeling their body. When i was talking to them i could feel the disconnection. Go to the beach, take off your shoes. Allow yourself to feel your feet, to feel the ground, to connect with the earth. Actually take time to really feel your body. Get out of your head.

I can feel this stuck up attitude from miles away.

I’m not even crazy, there could be a deepstate i dont know about, they could be running a project serving only to disable me. But i have to let it go because i will never know and me constantly worrying about it doesnt serve me.

Try to worry about the things you can influence. Stop worrying about cancer and whatever else.

I have some incredibly radical views, at least theyre looked upon as radical. And it kills me that most people dont agree with me but i need to let go. I could spend my entire day arguing with people online and what would it bring me? Protect yourself, start feeling within. I believe a lot of people dont feel within enough.

We used to feel within the entire day. Sitting in a fucking tent doing fuck all. Now were filling this emptiness, and it is unnatural. We honestly all do need a retreat and to sit in a tent with our close family for a year.

People call this grounding nowadays. I dont know how it works but when im in touch with the earth i feel whole. I can feel it. Feel the earth. Let go of worldly stuff you cant influence.

 

Cut, poison and burn. We are the only animal that fight ourselves to be healthy. Our body don't want to kill us. This doesn't make sense, this notion. War on cancer is war agains ourselves?!?! Look to the work of Dr. O. Carl Simonton.

Anyway, I gave all my love to my wife, but I couldn't support her choice. How could I? It goes against nature. Chemo is based on mostard gas, which was made to kill people in the battlefield. I love my wife but I didn't want her to suffer. What could I do?? She has the sane reaction as rabscuttle had. She stayed hating me.

 

Are you feeling/realizing/seeing that im not engaging with the cancer argument at all? That was a whole story about anything but cancer. Stuck in the head, you continue the cancer rant. This is your tms mate. Distractions everywhere.

M: What a beautiful blue sky

C: Well the chinese mate theyre sending their airplanes here and in russia and i just went here and there and i saw some white lines wow crazy theyre poisoning us. Always the bloody deepstate, theyre there even when you least expect it

Do you see this conversation. Do you see the lack of connection

 

Filipe, I’m not remotely upset. I’m trying to get you to see the clear dysfunction here. You’re clinging to this quite frankly, fringe and absurd idea because to accept that you may be wrong here would be quite overwhelming. This idea sounds like it cost you your marriage. We all make mistakes, we all have errors in judgement. But you need to let go of these views and actually feel the associated emotions and regrets that these views have caused.

As Mani said, these thoughts and obsessions are distractions from larger problems beneath the surface. Which I imagine are, but not limited to, profound sadness and regret at the loss of this relationship. Your present loneliness is directly related to this.

my goal isn’t to make you feel like shit or guilty but that you need to process this stuff so you can move forward and become more at peace so you can be someone who can function in a relationship.

I wish you the best.

 

Oh, Cactus, this is a reallllly good post. From the explanation of the divided mind to the giving oneself permission to stop obsessing on death to the trying to control the uncontrollable and the positive opportunity to understand and grow from all of it. These are all wonderful reminders for all of us.

 

Yes. You cannot let fear dictate your life. The best solution against fear is to not fear it. Fear is the most powerful emotion in the universe, it can put you in a weal chair, and even kill you. The problem is that fear is a great weapon to control masses. George Orwell 1984. We are flooded with fear all the time. On the other hand, healthy people live longer, they have to control population growth because of earth limited resources.

The thing that I'm most afraid is that this knowledge disappear. It took me too much time to know about Sarno, and mind body relation. 35 years to be more precise, even though you aren't immune to all this media propaganda. Every time you see TV talking about a new virus, a new disease, climate change, war, nuclear Armageddon, unemployment, the rise of life costs. It is not easy to shield yourself from this. And then, there are your inner ghosts...

 

Your memory and will is stronger than that - don't let yourself think otherwise. The knowledge can't disappear unless you choose to believe something else. Most of the things you listed have nothing to do with doubting Sarno and mindbody principles.

 

This thread has been some compelling reading. I see myself reflected in a lot of this actually - I am prone to alot of behavior shown here, and as most of you are saying, it is not healthy behavior.

- Getting annoyed at media (i.e. nearly all the primary electronic media) that has a clear bias politically and are pushing certain messaging and agenda.
- When they're not pushing messaging, they are definitely pushing a fear/outrage agenda. Notice the first 5min of the Today show everyday is almost all fear-based (weather catastrophes, new viruses, wars, horrible murders/child-abuse, etc) - but this is simply because fear SELLS. They know that people stop and pay attention to this stuff - just like people stop and pay attention to a train wreck.
- Compulsion to correct others, who I see as obviously wrong at worst and naive at best, usually online. This is related to my ego I think.
- Compulsion to judge others for their opinions or choices - feeling a strong sense that "justice" needs to be served on people that I perceive negatively (legit or no). Again, ego.

There is plenty more, but the point is that these dark places our mind go can take over our lives, and our interactions with others, and ruin all of it. I believe that people that are more "TMS prone" are even worse at these aspects (the 2 being surely related) - as some people just let all of the above float by. Sure, some may be naive and not notice these things but I believe that most actually do and they're not bothered by them like "we" might be. Just like most might have niggling pains here and there but they don't blossom into full blown TMS chronic pains.

I always thought that, had the X-Files been like real-life, Fox Mulder would've been wracked with TMS issues. Or maybe he is just the rare unicorn that can be obsessive and conspiracy prone without falling into the TMS trap. I'm not so lucky and I wrestle with all of this all the time.