It's all fear.

Hi. After all this time, I realised again that pain/anxiety/depression/rage it is all due to fear. Fear is the mind killer There is no way around it.

Fear comes from thoughts and memories. I remember one time I was in Amsterdam, and for no reason I start feeling this inner fear. I remember that the weather was very cloudy that day. I was alone, and this feeling of fear was uncomfortable. I look at common people and start fearing them. I thought I was getting crazy. I was already an adult, that time. This feeling lasted for that whole day. The next day the weather was vert good, and I reunited with my friend and I just forget about it. But .. every time I think about it, the same odd/fearful and uncomfortable sensation comes to my mind. So, even after the thing we fear isn't here the memory remains. I wonder if my knowledge about TMS today could have done anything to minimize it that day. If course this happened on other occasions.

Understanding TMS, makes us stop fearing pain, as a physical problem, but then we start fearing our brain, and the fact that when it represses emotions, it creates us pain. It's fear kicking in.

I wonder, what is the best way to express fear? Why do I seem to have more fear after I wake up, in the morning. Is there a way of erasing our childhood fearful memories? Fear makes us anxious, which results in pain.

Thanks

 

Spot on - everything of the sort is due to fear. Throw in jealously, greed, lust etc etc, If you didn't fear anything, you'd be perfectly content in the world.

You have to be brave and be willing to accept what you're afraid of coming true. There's a quote from the first book in the Game of Thrones series: 'can a man still be brave if he's afraid?' - response - 'That is the only time a man can be brave". If you can be ok despite your worst fears realising and be comfortable that you can handle them, then you're free.

If we are aware, we can prevent this (in large part) from happening in favour of expressing our emotions and accepting them. There's no need to fear your brain - it will help you if you help it (we have a lot more control over it than we think).

 

I wish we were toutht that in childhood, that is, to deal with our brains, and fears. I mean, why the mistery? It seems like faith is a requisit in this life. When I was a child I remember having a lot of rituals, like crossing my fingers, so what I was thinking won't come true. I remember being afraid of my thoughts, and the feeling of sadness really made me feel in pain. I also remember, having the clear notion that life did exactly what I didn't want. I remember telling my friends and family that I support a soccer team, when in fact I was supporting a other. Like I was trying to deceive my brain.

The problem is that I'm still not at ease. I feel nervous most of the time. And I'm still afraid of this sensation in my throat, after all these months. Every time I feel it I get into panic mode, because I actually have a mild goiter. My thyroid right lobe has 1cm more in volume. It's non visible. I think the thyroid reacts to fear, namely because it speaks with a endocrine gland situated in the brain.

I can only calm down when I'm physically too tired.

 

I think it might've helped, but the issue resides more in western culture itself, like how we tend to shame children from expressing anger and sadness, or how we train our minds to an individualistic competitive world. TMS and anxiety for me is more of a consequence of a species that's still too attached to fighting. Fear is not the enemy, it's just a messenger.

 

I believe that is the purpose of almost all rituals and superstitions etc. Not that doing any of that finger crossing had any actual impact on what happened, but it eased the mind which is just as good. The old saying is "10% of life is what happens to us and 90% how we deal with it."

 

Understanding TMS and doing the work is two different things.
I think you avoid the work because you are terrified to face your emotions and to drop being a victim.
We believe the stories we’ve told ourselves but doing the work helps us realize that they are simply thoughts, reactions, and that the past doesn’t have to dictate the future.
Journal, meditate, write unsent letters, do the Structured educational Program and find your peace and power.

 

You are right. The first time I understand what was TMS, I just got something to distract myself. I never did the emotional work. I just forget about it. I was younger, I had a great distraction, my child. He was so sweet. I remember one day, I was so much in pain, and he touch me in the back, with his small gentle hands, my pain disappeared completely, and I relaxed Immediately. Now, I'm afraid I cannot do it without them, my family. Anyway, it's journaling the same as expressive writing? I'm afraid that journaling won't let me forget about pain, and TMS.