Hi everyone, I am new on this forum and to the TMS idea. I will try to give you an idea of where I am coming from, this will be long but will try my best to keep it short. I am 36 and since many years suffer from anxiety, health-anxiety plus some related problems (mainly lump in throat, reflux). This all started after my mother was diagnosed and died 4 years later of ALS. I was 22 and her main carer. In December 2016 I started experiencing twitching in my right arm after some new arm exercises at the gym, the same where my mother started to have problems to before being diagnosed. I went straight away in super panic mode (not the first time I panicked about having als though), and after 10 days of hopeless crying I went to see an expert neurologist. The visit was clean but I insisted for an EMG. The EMG was clean... everybody said twitch will go away. The twitch didn't go away. I kept obsessing, but trying to live my life, with some relapse of high anxiety and crying mode hopeless. I started to feel some pains here and there but nothing major. Fast forward. January 2018. For some psycological reason I went again in panic mode about ALS, the twitches had never stopped anyway. I went to a physio which did some test and tried to convince me I was fine. But I kept being in a very bad psychological state. After 20 days of this, crying, anxiety, insomnia, couldn't eat properly etc, I started having pain in my left bicep. Weekly physio visits didn't help. Kept worrying A LOT. Started to have pain going around. Plantar fasciitis, right elbow, wrists, right ankle. RM to the neck showed a mild protusion C5-C6 but no nerve involvement. Things would come and go but persist quite long. Went to doctors nothing done really. At the beginning of March, after sitting for days at home, started having a crazy pain in my right buttock. A terrible pain. And to the ankle. Went to two different GP, ER, physio. They said muscle spasm, contracture. I was desperate, no tablet could help. Physio massage. After a couple of weeks the terrible pain lessened, but I Was still in pain. Went to a neurologist, still worried about ALS, he said all was ok and just anxiety to not do any further exam. Went to a phisiatrist, said I have tilted pelvis/lordosis and prescribed physio. Nobody worrying. Anyway, now it is two months and I still have pain in my buttock. It's not terrible as the first 10 days, but it is still there and very annoying. The worse when sitting. And I always had a terrible posture and work at computers. I started swimming (I was running before, but stopped when all the pain started). Swimming actually makes the pain worse the day after But I want to continue and physio said it's ok. A friend of mine told me about Sarno and I started reading the book, forums, success stories etc. It does make a lot of sense to me, but I can't say I am 100% there yet. I am quite sure I have nothing structural bad with my back, or even if there is a protusion I don't think this is the main cause of my pain. I did a lot of reading on this. My main anxiety is around neurological stuff, but I read TMS also affects nerves, and this gives me hope. Every doctor I see and the neurologist (expert in ALS) tell me I have nothing to worry about neurological stuff. I have been crying and crying and trying to do my best every day to overcome this. After the neuro exam I started feeling much better psychologically, but pain persisted. They want to change my antidepressant (yeah I take one for many years but it's doing nothing) and I am afraid to change and I don't think it makes sense to mask the pain. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I was so scared of the dreaded illness and terminal stuff and thinking nothing else could scare me more. But now I am crying because despite my efforts pain is there and I am unable to accept it. I know it all started with the anxiety and fear of the illness. And maybe this is still the cause. I have done psychotherapy but stopped at the moment. Will keep reading about TMS, want to start journaling, but I need some help and support and hope. Now the pain is stable in two places. Is it still compatible with TMS? Left bicep (not too crazy bad) and the right buttock-thight harmstring - especially bad sitting and driving. I admit I am still doing some physical therapy, activation points now for hip flexors and glutes.. but... all I have done until now didn't solve it. Any words are appreciated and sorry for the lenght of the post!