Its been almost a month since I have started the program, But I am too slow due to my routine and lack of the 'me' time. I am not complaining... My daily routine is not stressful as it sounds , but taking out time to watch a video or read or write becomes difficult. So far I am on day 8 . I love to read articles and watch the videos, especially Alan Gordon's but time is a problem. So this is my status. A)I have recovered almost 75% by reading the book and starting the TMS wiki structured program. B)Now I know that what are my shortfalls. 1) I always underestimated myself, way too much. 2) I had very low self-esteem. 3) And I am a hardcore worrier( This post is also one of my worries I guess) C) I am not scared of the pain, or so I think. Deep down I have no clue but on the surface, I am not. D) however I do sense back pain now and then. And if it's not there, I am conscious that it's not there. My back pain also moves here and there. So to sum up, I confess I am not sincere about the structured program, nor about journalling and I just hope it will not affect my progress.