Boston Redsox
Well Known Member
Hello friends
I took sometime off from the wiki to see if I can do some self discovery and healing, well lets just say it was not good ..I finally got my divorce as some of you may know I was going threw...very painful would not wish it anybody , but glad its over (BUT VERY PAINFUL).
My pain as moved around alot been going threw major anxiety issues , actually had such a bad attach it put me backin the hospital for 48 hrs could not speak lost voice..Dr thought it was a heart attach or I overdosed, thx god I was not alone and with my daughter.
My pain is much worse than ever, nothing as helped me at all thx god I have a TMS Dr, but even he saw how bad I was and gave me some meds but just made me sicker, I am slamming my head against the wall its been so long that this pain as consumed me especially at night.
I am seeing a therpist just to unload my feeling, she has become very tms savy she as educated herself over the year and has become understanding of my pain..
When I was in the hospital every test was done along with brain MRI and cat scans xrays and teh whole work up and of course all normal...THX GOD.
My fear and lonelyness is driving my pain , but as pain gets worse back to dr and the cycle continues...I wanted to change my doctor so many times but he as kept me grounded and trying to get me threw , he told me I was close to healing ....but need to give up the thought of any medical issues..
I am forcing him to test me for lyme and metal poising , but he told me he would but I am just feeding the beast.
Even though I was in a terrible marriage with a cheating wife, I had a sense of home family house when, even though we slept in different rooms..I was not alone I had my kids, my pets and a identity. Now that I have my own place my kids and my dogs...Also I am with a wonderful women who understand my pain issues and his nothing but great ....at times I tell her to go and find soemone who is not in pain I tell her you are to wonderful to be stuck with me. ( MORE SELF SABOTAGE).
I have reached out to Steve O for support and has been helpful, but I cant seem to find the way out. I am here to start over again with this great place of understanding and knowledge..
I didnt want to come back on until I had a success story to tell, so this is my starting from scrtach story.
Marco
I took sometime off from the wiki to see if I can do some self discovery and healing, well lets just say it was not good ..I finally got my divorce as some of you may know I was going threw...very painful would not wish it anybody , but glad its over (BUT VERY PAINFUL).
My pain as moved around alot been going threw major anxiety issues , actually had such a bad attach it put me backin the hospital for 48 hrs could not speak lost voice..Dr thought it was a heart attach or I overdosed, thx god I was not alone and with my daughter.
My pain is much worse than ever, nothing as helped me at all thx god I have a TMS Dr, but even he saw how bad I was and gave me some meds but just made me sicker, I am slamming my head against the wall its been so long that this pain as consumed me especially at night.
I am seeing a therpist just to unload my feeling, she has become very tms savy she as educated herself over the year and has become understanding of my pain..
When I was in the hospital every test was done along with brain MRI and cat scans xrays and teh whole work up and of course all normal...THX GOD.
My fear and lonelyness is driving my pain , but as pain gets worse back to dr and the cycle continues...I wanted to change my doctor so many times but he as kept me grounded and trying to get me threw , he told me I was close to healing ....but need to give up the thought of any medical issues..
I am forcing him to test me for lyme and metal poising , but he told me he would but I am just feeding the beast.
Even though I was in a terrible marriage with a cheating wife, I had a sense of home family house when, even though we slept in different rooms..I was not alone I had my kids, my pets and a identity. Now that I have my own place my kids and my dogs...Also I am with a wonderful women who understand my pain issues and his nothing but great ....at times I tell her to go and find soemone who is not in pain I tell her you are to wonderful to be stuck with me. ( MORE SELF SABOTAGE).
I have reached out to Steve O for support and has been helpful, but I cant seem to find the way out. I am here to start over again with this great place of understanding and knowledge..
I didnt want to come back on until I had a success story to tell, so this is my starting from scrtach story.
Marco
