I joined this forum a couple months ago and while I haven't been officially diagnosed with TMS, I'm pretty sure I have it. My symptoms are bladder-related - feeling of needing to urinate and some pelvic/bladder pain. Basically, the symptoms of interstitial cystitis (IC) which I know is a TMS equivalent. Anyway, I started the structured educational program on here, which was great, but due to some life circumstances, took a break from it. I was distracted by other things going on in life, and my symptoms basically disappeared. I do think the journaling and all helped. But, just today, the symptoms came back in a way they hadn't had for a while. I tell myself to "think psychologically." I was trying to think of what could have triggered this...so I'm just looking for insight from you more experienced TMS-ers. I did have a voicemail from my mom today which brought up slight feelings of what I think is a root of my TMS - feeling like I disappointed her, I'm not a good daughter because I haven't talked to her in a while, I'm not living up to her expectations, etc. I didn't have ALL those thoughts, but it was a general feeling that I've had MANY times in my life before. But before, it didn't cause me physical symptoms. Could it just now in my life (I'm 33 years old) cause physical symptoms whereas it didn't before? Or maybe different symptoms? I have been eating/drinking the "forbidden" IC foods, which haven't caused me problems bladder-wise lately, but my mind goes there - what if it's the food or the wine, etc etc? I know that's dangerous thinking because it makes it focused on the physical. Last question: a while back, I made an appointment with an IC specialist (urologist) that is coming up on the 18th. I'm thinking I shouldn't even go to the appt now, because it could actually make things worse. I'm sure he doesn't know anything about TMS and might make me think my issues are physical (which clearly they're not because they went away with no change in my eating/drinking or anything). Thoughts?