I am quitting my job today again and im going to move to Spain where my dad lives (i live in netherlands). Computer, mobile etc really affects my pain a lot and im so exhausted and these heart things are bad. So i tried for 7 months but it didnt work out and i just cant keep going. I am at the point where il collapse any moment. So i made the decision to quit. Maybe in Spain i can really work on myself and get better, or maybe its not TMS and il get better because il work outside and not behind a pc all day. Who knows. But i know this job and staying here isnt going to work.
Working my current job makes me feel so shitty cause of the pc work that i cant even enjoy my free time at all, i have to sleep all the time, i cant do any physical exercise exceot for walking +- 30 minutes. I feel really unhealthy and thats why i dont want to try this pc work anymore. I cant even enjoy sitting outside without my heart having a tough time and me getting dizzy etc. After 7 years of misery, where it only gets worse every year i have to drastically make a change as my last resort. I am depressed now but il try to stay positive and try one more time while living a different life in Spain.
TMS seems unlikelier but i do now i got some issues in life still psychological and if its the cause of my pain i doubt it, but il have to face those psychological problems anyway, so who knows. But i feel its better now to avoid the pc work because literally cant keep going, its inhumane and i dont know how i kept it up so long.