I always tried not to feel sorry for myself but sometimes I just cried and looked at the shambles my life had become. I felt so pathetic! No way out! But luckily there is a way out and you are actually much luckier than most people that you found out about TMS. It is really amazing how quickly I started to feel better. I eventually hit a plateau which is frustrating. I have a personality that accepted TMS rather quickly so I don't know if this might be holding you back. Remember that feelings are genuine so you can't ignore them. "Feel the feelings or feel the pain" as Dr Sarno says. After that pick up the pieces (or the book) and move on. If you have trouble, use this site to help.