Ok, after reading a post by Steve O. and another post on the IFS subforum I am determined to try and face the fear that I think is stopping me from healing. With my past two TMS issues I had some fear but since it impacted my leg and stomach I was able to mentally get to a point where I no longer focused on the pain once I realized it was TMS and it went away. Since the TMS has moved to my head and eyes it has been 1000 times harder as I am always being remined of it. Pain in my temples starts, eye muscles start hurting and my vision starts to get off and the fear sets in. It is an anxious feeling in my stomach and head. Today I took a 1/2 a xanax and to my surprise, I have had no issues until now. It has been almost 8 hours. I suspect my pill is wearing off and I can start to feel my eyes get sore and my head start to hurt. Why am I so fearful? I know it is only tension due to loads of Dr. appts and the fact that Xanax can take it away. I am fearful of it coming back when I feel good...how do I face that fear when I feel as though I am unable to rational think when I am in the middle of it. I want to invite the pain but that just sounds completely wrong. If it were in any other part of my body but my head I feel I could handle it like the leg, stomach or even my back pain which I have had before for weeks at a time. None of that bothered me as much since I could distract my mind. Why am I not strong enough to look past this. I know that Xanax stops it and its just tension I am creating by reacting to the fear.