Just had another night where I could not eat. Couldn't chew...evwry type of pain was at its full intensity. Once again I am sitting in the dark waiting. All I want to do is be able to brush my teeth and my my head on the pillow. Family and friends I tell them I don't want pity...just support and not judgment. Feels like someone serrated my scalp with a knife on top of black and blues. Spasms feel like a Charlie horse. My face and eyes r red as a beat. Just not able to move and I don't feel like reading or anything. It's only the beginning of this TMS journey. My biggest challenge is these damn long las ting flare ups. It doesn't feel like the nerves on my scalp and underneath will calm down. Frustrated, angry, and scared...and depressed.