dizzy, chronic red itchy eyes, acne

Hi everyone i really need some support,
i suffer from severe red itchy eyes since 2 years, doctors say its allergies, i need to take so much steroids in order to stop it. no other medicaton is helping. I learned about Tms and i see myself on every page. I struggle with perfectionism and low selth esteem, body dysmorphia , so i am always concered about how i look and only happy when i am looking good that day. If i see myself ugly in the mirror my whole day is destroyed. I know it sounds crazy but i cant control it. Right now i also get soooo dizzy since 8 month nonstop if i am working on the pc concentrated or in random situations. Those 2 thinks are controlling my life right now and i know i need to stop focus on it but i just cant stop it. I feel ugly depressed sad and dont want to leave my house because of this. Im so pissed its insane. It all began after i startet with my new studies, i need to do it and cant stop but i get so dizzy when i need to work concentrated there. I just cant live my life happy so that TMS stops, because its so hard to not focus on those eyes and expecially dizzyness
Any support? i feel helpless

 

You are not helpless, you are not ugly - you are human!!
I think you would benefit from doing the Structured Educational Program on the TMSwiki site (on left) or other programs similar.
If you put that first - it is only 15-20 minutes a day - it will get you on your way....
Take all the stuff you 'have' to do - break it down into manageable chunks and deal with it. Maybe do the TMS work, then some PC work (whatever you have to do -- study/work etc) then schedule some time outdoors - get out for fresh air - go somewhere with nature or at least trees - sit a whie - maybe take your lunch, treat it as a mini holiday in the day. Breath deep - and see how beautiful the world is.... then you will feel refreshed for some more work - but time it so you don't over stress your self. Factor some time later to meditate and /or do some journalling - see what comes up - what is stressing you, what triggers you? Then find ways to deal with it. I have lists of useful TMS stuff from the program on my walls - so i remember every day - Things to avoid, things to deal with straight away, to forgive, to forget, - my best one is 'for every hour on the PC - spend 2 hours in nature' It works!!
You just need to create a framework in which you can deal with your TMS (dont fuss about the symptoms - just do the TMS program) work out what your triggers are so you can be alert for them, and find out what makes you happy - how much work/play/nature/nurture - it seems hard to start with but it will work and it will get better.
I will also let you into a well kept secret - everyone feels shit about themselves! I wish I had learned what i know now in my teens - i hated myself, thought i was fat and ugly, did not give myself any credit. But now i am 56 - weigh twice as much, getting wrinkly and can't get out of a chair without 'humphing' - and I love myself - truly madly deeply! I am a lovely person and I deserve every happiness! And the silly thing is - I was the same person then (just slimmer!) but I just did not know it!! So grab the chance to be your better and actual self -we are all unique - and unique is precious....

 

Thank you for your Kind words, i really appriciate it. I want to go out in nature but this dizziness is so strange, i feel so much tension in my eyes its crazy. I cant work on computers anymore or going somwhere else because this tension is so nasty that it makes me dizzy, i feel like it is comming from my eyes if that makes sense. Sometimes its better and sometimes it hits hard. It feels like my eyes try to fight against something, i did many health tests . Does this maybe fit in TMS ? Like you already know im fit in personaly. I really shouldnt fuss about this symptom but its hard. Also im always googling if maybe i need some glasses or something else. I know this keeps symptoms alife

 

Maybe less googling - if you really worry you might need glasses or something - then go and have an eye test - tell them how much the symptoms are bugging you - but if you do not need glasses and they cannot see anything physically wrong - then you know it is tms....! Also remember that when we have some symptom that is really annoying and hard to ignore - it will be on your mind all the time - it is really hard to annoy - itchy eyes - or a headache - or toothache.... but if you work on dealing with it as tms - by putting work in manageable chunks, taking time out between, looking for stress triggers - work/pressure/family - whatever it is for you - you start to deal with it and it will get gradually better.... but you have to do the legwork - and a lot of that legwork is - to be kind to yourself!!!!!

 

Hi. Can I ask you how are your eyes now please? Hope to have an answer it will be really appreciate. Thank you

 

Hi, the itchiness and redness is a bit better, i have maibomian gland dysfunction, very dry eye so i need to massage the glands. And i maybe have a hidden squint (dizziness/eye tension) i am still getting checked out at the eye university for that. But what i did notice, if i am in a tight tense mental state, my eyes get much worse