Hi all, I'm having an issue I'd like to get feedback on please. A big part of my tms recovery has been about getting back out into the world especially on the job front. I've been making awesome progress in this respect: sending out CVs, attending workshops in my field, networking, setting goals and just generally being more pro-active. I should be feeling great, right? Well, I'm not. Actually, I'm more depressed than ever. I thought doing these things would give my life meaning and purpose, but I still feel so lost. There's a voice in my head saying: "See, I told you it wasn't worth it. You're doing this for nothing. Nothing will help. You'll always feel this way." This thinking pattern is one I know well. I have fought it my entire life. I am starting to consider the possibility that I may need antidepressants. I took them about 7 years ago for about 18 months, just before my neck problem started. They helped, but the side effects were really bad. I also saw a video by mindbody expert Dr. Clark who said he cured his patient's chronic pain by treating his depression with antidepressants. Has that worked for anyone here? The good news is that whenever I connect with this deep emotional pain, my physical pain vanishes - not that I had any doubt that this is tms. But I guess this is what my physical pain is all about: helping me avoid these feelings and then the depression is another tms equivalent helping avoid the deeper issue, which I'm seeing related to a lack of purpose or connection. Any thoughts? Thanks!