Hi guys, Today's lesson of the day is on conditioning. I went windsurfing today, just to be nice to myself since i'm at the beach. and did a lesson for the first time ever. Afterwards, my toe which I told you all was diagnosed with seismoditis and was in sort of 2.5 pieces and constantly in pain last year- was the miraculously healed when I prayed for it, with a dramatic decrease in pain- rememeber that toe? The one that has gotten much better and did so practically overnight? Anyway, foot swoll up. Entire forefoot. And it hurt to walk on- not as much as it used to, maybe I'd just say sore. I'm having trouble breaking the conditioning cycle. Two reasons: one, I am struggling to believe the toe pain is structurally caused. Why? There aren't too many cases of seismoditis and fracrured seismods talked about here. But there was improvement after learning about the biblical truth on healing through a couple healing ministers I discovered. And yet I'm struggling to believe. Even though I'm better, Dr. Schechter said I 'probably' had TMS, that he had seen many people with seismod pain recover, even with all that I am struggling to believe a) The word of God b) TMS Why? I don't know. But the doubt permeates me. But so the word of today si conditioning. Conditioning i.e when I do this activity, I expect this pain, therefore now when I did the activity I got pain. How does breaking the fear cycle happen? I've read what Alan Gordon said but it's still hard. Feels pain. Is afraid of pain therefore tries to walk in way to avoid pain regardless of whether I believe it is TMS or whatever. Cycle continues. Or Feels nothing. About to engage in physical activity Mildly afraid about feeling pain (though today I didn't have this expectation) Participates in activity Has pain afterwards and even swelling. How does one stop this interruption? Fear is crippling me and so frustrating, but also these symptoms have me questioning the Word and TMS basics, and I don't know why the doubt is just relentless. Thoughts on all the above? In order: breaking fear cycle, conditioning, and most importantly Is this kind of reaction to activity normal? Am I normal for having this reaction? Wish there were more seismod-ers out here with crazy MRIs and an injury that explains 'onset'