Thanks for all the discussion on Day 2. Someone wrote about the fight/flight/freeze response, and I think my brain has been sending messages to my body to be on "alert" for danger for as long as I can remember. I have read a lot about trauma and there are some books about trauma being stored in the body. I think I believe that. One assignment today was to watch Alan Gordon's video on accepting the diagnosis. He is a good speaker! He talks about the conditioning process--how we associate a movement or position with pain. One thing that has never made sense to me is that I get in tremendous pain riding in a car. I feel every bump all the way up to my shoulders and neck, and in my arms, too. My brother lives an hour and a half away and has Parkinson's. I would really like to visit him more as he just went on disability and is home by himself a lot, so maybe through this program I'll be able to learn to ride in the car. The other assignment for Day 3 is to start writing out past events that may be associated with our pain. I already have a list I did for a psychotherapist and it is long. I will print it out tonight and make some notes about the timing of pain symptoms. I do have a significant amount of trauma in my history and have "dealt" with a lot of it in therapy, but it seems like there are always more layers. From everything I'm reading about TMS, it's not always necessary to completely work though things from the past before pain may subside. Oh, and one more thing. I'm going to stop taking Tylenol. I take the maximum amount around the clock and have for 8-9 years. If TMS is muscle tension, Tylenol theoretically shouldn't help. I have the belief that I need it, although I'm still in pain, so it's obviously not working that well. I'm anticipating my pain may increase due to fear of not taking it--believing I need it and the pain will be worse if I don't take it. I've tried this before and always start taking it again. I hope it's not too early in the program to do this. It seems like I can do it now, but if not, I won't beat up on myself and can try again later.