Do you think you are avoiding any part of this treatment? What emotions or past events do you think you may be repressing? These were the two questions to ponder for today. I am not avoiding the treatment, however, I am definitely doing things to slow down my healing. Firstly, I have not been consistent with my journal entries nor my forum posts. I have every intention to complete my daily structured educational program journal entries, but I have fear to do them and end up not even opening my journal. I have been able to at least enter something once a week. I get anxious at the thought of having to write down my feelings. I hope to get over this issue at some point. My other issue is that my body continues to create new pain and problems just as one clears up. I am happy that my plantar's fascitiis is now healed, but my stomach issues returned this past week and my eye twitching and facial rash continue to flare on and off. I recently got engaged and my fiance and I cannot agree on the reception. I also am looking for a new job. I tend to avoid conflict and not ask for things that I want in order to please others, but this behavior has caused many of my symptoms to increase lately. The main emotions that I might be repressing are ones related to not expressing my anger or concerns in order to please others. I often think that I do not set boundaries and end up feeling resentful for doing things that I don't want to do. I also have tried to avoid conflict in the past in order to keep my parents happy by not insisting on the things that met my needs and wants. I felt that their love was tied to me doing exactly what they wanted. I keep repeating this behavior with my new relationships.