It would be really wonderful to see you accept this condition and then instead focus on your mental health.
If you could literally remove your attention as often as possible away from this and allow it to be, it would go away. A relapse is likely until you’ve cured the sources of your anxiety.
Life is just testing you. All the things you think you can’t do in life bc of this condition become available to you as soon as you do what is stated in that first sentence.
The fact you believe you are in a special kind of situation, and the fact the doctors reinforce that, locks you into a special, fictitious hell.
Find the courage to ignore(not get angry with) everybody who doesn’t believe it’s TMS including the doctors. Then maybe buy them a bottle of you favorite hot sauce