Jaromir
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Hi everyone. My name is Jaromir, I’m 32 years old and I found this forum, wiki side and TMS concept few weeks ago. I think it was through listening some video regarding trigger point therapy. Here is my story, sorry for its length in advance.
I’m trying to remember when I first realized my health issues. In the end of 2011 I was fit and healthy, just finished my working holiday program in Whistler, BC - Canada where I had the time of my life, full of sporting, partying and all of that. After I returned to Europe I found a job as a sales man in a big company. I found it really fast and since then I work there. I never really thought about what I want to do and to be honest I never imagined myself working regular job before I started one..
Working regular job in office, behind computer screen, doing something what I never studied, listening my boss about how I have to call to people and offer them our machines and so on was kind frustrating at first and very boring after a while.. In the end of 2012 I found a new hobby for myself as I had to do something creative – I started to draw and digitally paint. I discovered concept art, drawing, painting, start studying artistic anatomy etc. It was (and still is) a lot of fun, but I discovered at that time also some pain in my palm and hand. I always had pain in my palm whenever I write for excessive time, so I thought its same stuff and that if I will draw longer I will get over it. Unfortunately this pain was always there and never stopped. It get worse actually..
In summer 2013 I started relationship with my girlfriend and I’m with her since. In the end of year 2013 I went with two of my colleagues for business trip to India. We were there to hand over sold machines, my task was to translate and business communication with customer (sure it was stressful). We were there for four or five weeks and in the last week of our stay I had a terrible blockage of my cervical spine. This happened to me few times before (in childhood as well), so I knew what’s going on. I blamed all that AC with combination with high temperatures outside and thought it’s going to be better soon. As you probably expect, it didn’t. I got rid of actual blockage, but I carry neck pain since then.
Combination of my neck pain and hand pain was getting worse, I tried physical therapy, massage, then I started typical circle – orthopedist then neurologist, orthopedist again, X-Rays, MRI you know that. Of course doctors found some physical issues, one told me my leg is shorter for about 3cm (more than inch), another told me my troubles are from my old shoulder injury (I dislocated shoulder many times in the past). I have winged scapula on that injured side and I believe there are some minor structural changes, but I injured my shoulder long time before all this chronic pain begun. Nothing has been found on my neck MRI. Another orthopedist told me my leg is shorter less then 1 cm, so not such a big deal. But he also found that I have 2nd to 3rd grade osteoarthrosis in both of my hips! After I discovered this I found that my hip pain went worse than ever before (for a week or so). After I accepted the fact and calmed myself about it, it went smoothly out and shows up only occasionally. I tried trigger point dry needling, makes things better for a while, but just temporarily. I was trying Les Fehmi dissolving pain techniques and they also helped me a bit, but I never found enough patience to be consistent for a longer time in meditation.
At the present time, I’m already applying some TMS concepts. I can say I’m convinced more and more, that my pain is originating not just from my structural body changes, but also from my mind. I’m focusing on my inner feelings whenever I feel pain. Sometimes I see obvious patterns, like yesterday I had a head pain and some strange clicking in my ears right after I was feeling angry. But also it is difficult to convince myself that my hand pain is of the same character, as it is with me for a long long time and that it’s not caused by my winged scapulae and all that stuff with my shoulder. My head and neck pain can be sometimes dissolved with some inner talk and meditation, sometimes it’s too strong and I just try to ignore it but it lasts… What is important though is that it’s changing every day, and there is not a big reason for me to have a head pain (specifically it is pain in my right eye, right ear, right temple, right Sternocleidomastoid). It is difficult for me to accept that all of my pain - knee, hips, ribs, shoulder blade, neck, arm, and hand (everything is right sided) is just because of my emotions. My parents are doctors, thereof I know quite a bit about medical treatment and its exact scientific procedure, but also my mom supports me and she herself told me to try psychosomatic approach.
I want to try this structured program, unfortunately I’m afraid I will not be able to follow it every day (sometimes I don’t have time or mood), but that might be no problem though.. I might have troubles to accept some information’s too, as I’m very analytical (kind of scientific) person and I’m always looking for directions rather than clues..
Does anyone have similar symptoms? Do you guy think all my troubles might be just TMS? I’m looking forward to hear from you.
I’m trying to remember when I first realized my health issues. In the end of 2011 I was fit and healthy, just finished my working holiday program in Whistler, BC - Canada where I had the time of my life, full of sporting, partying and all of that. After I returned to Europe I found a job as a sales man in a big company. I found it really fast and since then I work there. I never really thought about what I want to do and to be honest I never imagined myself working regular job before I started one..
Working regular job in office, behind computer screen, doing something what I never studied, listening my boss about how I have to call to people and offer them our machines and so on was kind frustrating at first and very boring after a while.. In the end of 2012 I found a new hobby for myself as I had to do something creative – I started to draw and digitally paint. I discovered concept art, drawing, painting, start studying artistic anatomy etc. It was (and still is) a lot of fun, but I discovered at that time also some pain in my palm and hand. I always had pain in my palm whenever I write for excessive time, so I thought its same stuff and that if I will draw longer I will get over it. Unfortunately this pain was always there and never stopped. It get worse actually..
In summer 2013 I started relationship with my girlfriend and I’m with her since. In the end of year 2013 I went with two of my colleagues for business trip to India. We were there to hand over sold machines, my task was to translate and business communication with customer (sure it was stressful). We were there for four or five weeks and in the last week of our stay I had a terrible blockage of my cervical spine. This happened to me few times before (in childhood as well), so I knew what’s going on. I blamed all that AC with combination with high temperatures outside and thought it’s going to be better soon. As you probably expect, it didn’t. I got rid of actual blockage, but I carry neck pain since then.
Combination of my neck pain and hand pain was getting worse, I tried physical therapy, massage, then I started typical circle – orthopedist then neurologist, orthopedist again, X-Rays, MRI you know that. Of course doctors found some physical issues, one told me my leg is shorter for about 3cm (more than inch), another told me my troubles are from my old shoulder injury (I dislocated shoulder many times in the past). I have winged scapula on that injured side and I believe there are some minor structural changes, but I injured my shoulder long time before all this chronic pain begun. Nothing has been found on my neck MRI. Another orthopedist told me my leg is shorter less then 1 cm, so not such a big deal. But he also found that I have 2nd to 3rd grade osteoarthrosis in both of my hips! After I discovered this I found that my hip pain went worse than ever before (for a week or so). After I accepted the fact and calmed myself about it, it went smoothly out and shows up only occasionally. I tried trigger point dry needling, makes things better for a while, but just temporarily. I was trying Les Fehmi dissolving pain techniques and they also helped me a bit, but I never found enough patience to be consistent for a longer time in meditation.
At the present time, I’m already applying some TMS concepts. I can say I’m convinced more and more, that my pain is originating not just from my structural body changes, but also from my mind. I’m focusing on my inner feelings whenever I feel pain. Sometimes I see obvious patterns, like yesterday I had a head pain and some strange clicking in my ears right after I was feeling angry. But also it is difficult to convince myself that my hand pain is of the same character, as it is with me for a long long time and that it’s not caused by my winged scapulae and all that stuff with my shoulder. My head and neck pain can be sometimes dissolved with some inner talk and meditation, sometimes it’s too strong and I just try to ignore it but it lasts… What is important though is that it’s changing every day, and there is not a big reason for me to have a head pain (specifically it is pain in my right eye, right ear, right temple, right Sternocleidomastoid). It is difficult for me to accept that all of my pain - knee, hips, ribs, shoulder blade, neck, arm, and hand (everything is right sided) is just because of my emotions. My parents are doctors, thereof I know quite a bit about medical treatment and its exact scientific procedure, but also my mom supports me and she herself told me to try psychosomatic approach.
I want to try this structured program, unfortunately I’m afraid I will not be able to follow it every day (sometimes I don’t have time or mood), but that might be no problem though.. I might have troubles to accept some information’s too, as I’m very analytical (kind of scientific) person and I’m always looking for directions rather than clues..
Does anyone have similar symptoms? Do you guy think all my troubles might be just TMS? I’m looking forward to hear from you.
