Alan: Thanks for doing this! I am very grateful for you. After 8 months now of chronic low back pain and reading every article, book, and audiobook on TMS and Mind-Body Syndrome, I am sure this must be TMS. I even saw “All the Rage” last night in NJ. I have had so many unexplained TMS equivalents over the years- back pain, elbow “tendonitis” in both arms, “carpal tunnel syndrome” in wrist, stomach nervousness, severe chronic Anxiety and Depression, dry eyes, IBS, headaches, etc. I completely match the profile- goodist, perfectionist, worrier, overachiever, etc. Despite all of my recent back pain treatments over the past 8 months and telling myself all day long that there is nothing to fear, nothing is physically wrong, and that this will go away, I am still sitting here in 24/7 pain. No improvement. I have a few questions that I just can’t wrap my head around after all this time... 1) About a month and a half ago, I did a lot of yard work one weekend, and then felt GREAT for about 5 days! I had no pain at all! It was a miracle. I had always been exercising over these 8 months (with no results), but this was the most bending and “straining” I had done up until that point. I was so happy, I thought I was all better. Then it returned and I haven’t been able to find that kind of relief again ever since. I have continued to stay active, but it hasn’t helped. What’s that all about? 2) I had a great childhood with great parents and no trauma. Nobody yelled at me or caused any emotional or physical abuse. No bullying. So, I can’t figure out how the TMS is from repressed childhood rage? The only things that I believe could be a factor is that since early childhood, I have always been afraid to fail and always wanted control (in order to not fail!). My "success" in life since childhood was being able to control or manage my “workload” and be perfect. That allowed me not to fail, and be a "success" in everything. I think that has caused me all the chronic anxiety and pains in life. I think this is all fear of failure that has driven me in everything I do. Thoughts? Sound like TMS even though no traumatic experiences? 3) I have read a lot about chronic pain and the neuropathways that form causing you pain. I really believe in that. Is it possible that what was originally a TMS emotional “distraction” is now a hardened neuropathic pain pathway that cannot be undone by just letting go of the fear and confronting my emotions? Is it more complicated than that? Thanks so much!