Recent content by DieMond128

I spent my first week reading and writing and meditating. I noticed small changes at first. Had a major confrontation with my main stressor and managed to remain calm and my back and leg pain became manageable for the first time in months. Three days of hope. Then I wrote in my journal last...

Aside from the very long list of symptoms imperative I've experienced over the last week, yesterday upon my return to work, I noticed myself internally rolling my eyes or smirking when someone would tell me, "You're feeling better? Okay, just take it easy, don't overdo it, the last thing you...

I'm still waiting on advice from my union, but I'm thinking of being honest with my employers about all the medical hoops I've been dealing with and I why my paperwork keeps changing. Leaving out the TMS stuff, but owning up to the rest of it. Hopefully they'll be willing to accommodate me for a...

I don't particularly like my job but it's all I have and I've got zero other options. My loa's keep being denied because the paperwork doesn't line up with what they deem acceptable. Muscle strain, si joint malfunction, pain management. It doesn't matter what we say, they deny. I know that I am...

We already did restricted duties with a graduated timeline and it didn't work, this was prior to me figuring out that I've got TMS mind you. I was convinced that my work was making my back worse. My employers are not, compassionate people, and I already have an absenteeism problem, also from my...

On Tuesday, I'm scheduled for a meeting with my employers, about returning to work on modified duties. I intend to say that I'm ready to come back at full duties because I know that in order to overcome my TMS I need to stop treating my body and start treating my mind. So I need to go in and do...

I've got a preconceived timeline in my head and I know it's not helpful. I've got no choice but to return to work on Monday after 6 weeks of trying to get my back better, going back to work for a bit, the leaving again. My employers are not sympathetic to me and are threatening to fire me, as...

I'm so new to this. I absolutely believe I have TMS. I've been doing the work for two days, and it seems like, I'm getting a new symptoms every time I make a breakthrough. Tonight I did some guided meditation/hypnosis to fall asleep because my shoulders were hurting (new pain) after signing up...

I'll try to think of something I can use as a distraction.

I took a bath which is usually soothing but today it didn't. I've got a new symptom, nausea, and I know it's just my mind trying to hold onto my emotions. It's just so hard. I think I need to keep reading and find more coping mechanisms. Thanks for your words.