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EM, you've come to the right place. Your story parallels mine in so many ways. TMS strikes the places that are tied deeply to our self-identity: you're a runner, so: feet and ankles. Devastating. Been there. Even though Steve's story is a fantastic read, I agree, that epic jog is a good idea...

The question is: what have you learned about yourself by going through this program? 1. I learned that my TMS (which I've named "Stu") is not my enemy; rather, it's been trying to protect me. We've had a long-term, love-hate relationship. We're "frenemies," in fact. Now we talk every day...

Oh, meditation, you and I don't seem to see eye to eye. I try to focus on my breathing and repeat the word "Peace" over and over, my mantra. But my brain won't slow down. Or maybe it's me telling my brain it can't slow down, there's too much on my to-do list I haven't checked off. Gonna try...

Sometimes I confuse the things I things I do for myself that are motivated by self-compassion, and those that are motivated by fear, as I recently learned. I'm working on the latter, but there are a few that are clear-cut. I walk my dog every morning, no matter what, because walking a dog is one...

Holy sh*t. I decided to try one thing. Right now. And I set a timer for 30 minutes. And I was absolutely overcome with fear, so I decided I couldn't do it. then I had an idea - I re-set the timer for five minutes and started working on Day 36. Sensations were all over the place. The timer went...

Well, that's plain speaking, Jan! But dead on. So now what? When I was a sensitive teenager, I was overweight. My sisters were dating, but I wasn't. I blamed it on my weight - if I was skinny, I'd have all the dates I wanted. So I lost weight. And surprise surprise, that wasn't the issue at all...

I was supposed to be on Day 35 today, which is my "rest and regroup" day, but I didn't get through all the journaling yesterday. And so what? Nobody's perfect hahahahaha! The question is, what parts of the program do I think are frustrating and/or I don't accept. And maybe this is a more of a...

This is the furthest I've progressed through the SEP. The first two times, I see now, I did not fully believe that my pain could be TMS. Now I don't have any doubt, even though some of my symptoms look physical and are not very common on the wiki. I think my brain is very adept at figuring out...

It's not linear, let me just get that out of the way. But I'm getting stronger every day. The "a-ha" moments have been startling and revealing. I have, more than a few times, been overwhelmed. I've also been courageous in ways I could not have predicted before I started the program. I've pushed...