So I have reached day 10... The past 10 days were a bit of roller coaster for me. I have accepted the diagnosis, then again I had rejected it and then again I am accepting it. I have came across Dr Sarno theory and this forum during weekend after roughly 4 months of sciatica - which got worse last month. I have been reading about the TMS for two days straight. At first it looked like another "heal yourself mumbo jumbo", but then I have found 2 research papers on pubmed. First was about the outcome of spine MRIs from 3100 asymptomatic people, and it turned out that this was exactly what Dr Sarno was saying 30 years earlier! Next, clinical research by Dr Schubiner, which showed that 53% of patients were healed when they were treated TMS. What is more, everything started to click, I had a really difficult year and symptoms were matching some events in my life. I started Structured Educational Program and was making progress for 7 days straight - I slowly started living again: got back to work, helping at home, driving car, meeting with friends. Then I made a mistake and went to see a neurosurgeon. That was a disaster, especially when I saw my MRI, large disc extrusion. I started feeling very sick, symptoms fully returned. I started having "disc herniation obsession" and was digging the Internet about research on disc regeneration, about surgery, ozon injection etc. I still followed the SEP, but did it as a yet another task was not convinced that it was helping at all. Today two things have changed today: 1. My book - Sarno's "Healing back pain" - was delivered. 2. Did Holmes and Rahe test and it turned out I scored 360 for this year, but most important I saw how many stressful events I went through in just 8 months. I have noticed, that sciatica pain decreased significantly and I was able to work on some easy stuff at garden. Now, I need to read "Healing back pain" and going back on the path to finish my recovery.