TMS story Hi , As I am new to the forum I will tell a bit about my history of TMS. Though it will be much the same as a lot of you already described. It started about 1981 with knee pains. This was also the year that I left my parental home to live on my own with my girlfriend and the year that ended my military service and I had to start working for a living. the working was very demanding for me and gave me lots of stress, always afraid to do things wrong or not being good enough Later , after a few years lower back pains appeared frequently. I will not go into detail as it was ups and downs. Many times I had to stay in bed for 3 weeks . Also as computer work started to take a lot of my time I developed RSI ( repetative stress injurie ) in the arms and wrist , and shoulders. I started doing Alexandertechnique for it and it helped a lot , but symptoms kept on coming back and I had to be carefull more and more. In 2010 my back started hurting very seriously after lifting a heavy weight and even the spine was curved like sciatic. This was the day before I had to do a job that I hated at work. So the trigger was very clear to me ............ I was already a member of the RSI patients society and in the magazine one day read about the TMS approach , which I immediately saw was the way to go for me. In the years that followed and reading Sarno's books , as well as others on TMS my pains got less and at last were nearly or totally gone. Last summer however , when finishing a contract ( which is a usual thing for me ) and going on a long holiday the TMS came back very strong during vacation. So now I have to do a bit Aleandertechnique again , which I do not like as it is against the recommendations from dr Sarno to do special exercises against TMS , but at the moment it seems I have to. so now I wonder how to continue. a little background info I was raised by a very strict father who told me and my sibblings all the time that we were not good enough I did psychotherapy on that ( PRI from Ingeborgh Bosh , which is real good for this ) but still as soon as I have to do something which I hate or if I get comments that I did something wrong or if I am afraid at work to make a mistake immediately the back starts to hurt a lot , disabling I tried some journalling , but it is not really my thing I think............... I hope to find some advice here how to contimue from here on thank you very much John.