In the last 10 days or so I was experiencing a flair of pain. Maybe it lasted longer than 10 days, I wasn't really keeping track. It did pull me back into a state of fear, or maybe I was already in a state of fear and the pain came on because of it. They both came on about the same time. I was traveling to another state to possibly consider moving. The trip itself was very enjoyable. Before the trip I was overthinking the possibilities and it generated fear. My pain had really kicked up. Mostly stomach pains IBS stuff. I tried to handle it as best as I could. But I kept gravitating toward what if something is wrong. That is such a hard thing to try not to do because I have done it so many times before. One day I was out for lunch with a friend and was very into the conversation. I had eaten a large meal and went home and for 3-5 hours I had zero pain. Where normally i would have pain immediately after a meal. Wow, again there was evidence that this was TMS. During my ups and downs i came across Alan Gordon's TMS webinar. I listened to it. It was fantastic! I reassured me of things I had forgotten and I practiced outcome independence. I was slowly becoming more and more independent. I went on the trip and the whole time - pain free this had not happened since before the pain. Even my best days I had little peeps of pain. Currently I have some difficulty but I got a little taste of freedom once again and it felt great and I keep practicing my independence of the pain. Happy healing.