I started reading 'Healing Back Pain' on Sunday and it's been very enlightening, but I gather it's going to be a long road. I've been having a number of chronic symptoms over the last 20-24 months. Upset stomach, nausea, permanent neck pains, lower back pains, shoulder pains, and recently lightheadedness, tension headaches, ear ache and weakness in my arms and legs, particularly on the right side. I've gotten the all clear from three medical practitioners (4-5 blood tests), two gastroenterologists (blood tests), the ER (ultrasound on stomach, an MRI on my head, and 2 blood tests), two orthopedists, a urologist and an ear, nose and throat specialist. 3 weeks ago I had an MRI on my neck. My orthopedist said the results were clear, but that the radiologist suggested a follow up MRI to investigate bone marrow with a contrast dye. There was no urgency in their recommendation though. Scheduling it was left completely up to me (early June). And I was only informed at a follow up appointment I had scheduled myself. Seems like they're just being thorough rather than concerned. The thing is, in terms of stress and anxiety, I'm realising that I'm absolutely wired. Not only am I carrying so much old stress and frustration with me (despite being only 28), I'm fixated on my health. What went from a mild anxiety about terminal illnesses every time I got tested, is now a feeling of certain impending doom every time I'm waiting for results. Doctor says he recommends checking the bone marrow? Must be leukaemia, a spinal tumour and all the other stuff I found on Wikipedia and WebMD. Spending a week thinking you're waiting to be told you're going to die is no fun, and certainly doesn't help the stress levels Sooooo, after all that, I was wondering how some of you have shaken off the feeling that you haven't been tested properly, your doctor's weren't thorough enough, your symptoms just aren't visible enough to whoever is checking etc.? When is it time to let go? And how? Thanks!